back part 2
Sunday, May 27, 2012      3 comments

have found some motivation again. met with my neighbour and decided we can do it. have put notes on the biscuit tin and sweetie tin and food cupboard to make me stop eating randomly. i needed to break my mindless eating routine and get back in c... Read more
Thursday, May 03, 2012      5 comments

i have lost my way. its a month since i last blogged and logged in. my weight has increased each week almost back to where i started . if only i had been able to keep going with that initial buzz, excitiement and motivation. i seem to have lost ... Read more
private eye
Friday, March 30, 2012      3 comments

i have employed myself to become my own private detective to work out what is going on in my brain and my distorted thought processes that lead to my obsession and struggles with food. why do i start on the straight and narrow and then suddenly ... Read more
Thursday, March 29, 2012      3 comments

am really struggling to keep focused and on track. am writing my blog (nearly wrote blob then !) as part of my process to help. am trying to work out what it is i need. why do i eat the foods i know wont help with my goals. it keeps happening an... Read more
a month on ..
Wednesday, March 14, 2012      4 comments

i think it must be a month since i last went on this website. during this month i have been eating and eating and gaining more weight . just eating unhealthily, self sabatotaging , out of control etc etc .. all rubbish stuff really. (12 lb on !... Read more
whats going on
Tuesday, February 14, 2012      3 comments

i got in tonight and ate, ate, ate. all my good intentions for the day gone in a 30 minute food fest of non stop eating and have probably managed to consume a weeks worth of calories in one sitting. am so fed up with myself . these days seem mor... Read more
wake up
Tuesday, February 14, 2012      5 comments

my new scales finally arrived. i have gained 3 lbs and although they will be different to the gym scales i think this is a bit of a wake up call. i have been over eating, havent been tracking and slipping back in to old eating patterns and none ... Read more
a dip - not the food variety
Friday, February 10, 2012      5 comments

yesterday was a bit of a of derailment. not sure what or why it happened but from the minute i woke to going to bed i ate uncontrollably high calorie and high fat food. it reminded me of regular days like this pre sparkpeople. i felt uncomfortab... Read more
Saturday, February 04, 2012      5 comments

the scales where i normally weigh myself at the gym are broken. this has really thrown me off track. it seems a bit odd that its the case. am writing this blog to work out whats happening with the aim to get me back on track. in theory i should ... Read more
Tuesday, January 24, 2012      2 comments

i can see a pattern emerging of how i can go up and down in the short space of a few days. last week i tried hard to stick to my calories and increased my actvitiy levels and was excited about getting weighed. however i had stayed the same and i... Read more
6 weeks to go
Thursday, January 12, 2012      3 comments

am trying to get motivated. am away in 6 weeks time with some friends so have set myself the target of loosing 14lbs before i go away. have already declined to go to the all you can eat breakfast buffet my friends are booking on and will go for ... Read more
downs and ups
Wednesday, January 11, 2012      8 comments

my motivation / energy for loosing weight is dipping , i dont like it. i want to be like i was . it seems to be when in the evenings after eating and am finding myself searching for food - sweet food. theres still lots of chocs and sweets left f... Read more
Thursday, January 05, 2012      2 comments

77 is my magic number . This is how many pounds I plan to loose in 2012.it will take me to 199 which will be amazing and feel like a major milestone. This is acheivable and I can be strong and do it . Am feeling positive about this despite all... Read more
note to self
Wednesday, January 04, 2012      2 comments

i dont really have a particular focus for this blog but feel that putting "pen to paper" will help just because it does. have been less focused with my tracking and am guessing more and saying i am still in range but i have been eating more swee... Read more
straight back on track after christmas day
Monday, December 26, 2011      2 comments

didnt go too mad yesterday but decided not to track my calories and i know i will have gone over. the fridge is full of lovely leftovers and have cleared away the kids chocs into a tin so out of sight. am back tracking today and for the rest of ... Read more

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