When reaching a certain image isn’t enough.
This is an honest dialogue I’ve had in my mind a lot lately... not some “women’s empowerment” entry.
Why am I so fixated on who I am not? It takes so much of my energy, ALL day long.
I want to be skinny again, to be really fit again, t... Read more
Letting go is hard - like Tom Hanks knocking out a sore, infected tooth - with an ice skate - on an island - alone - HARD.
Because it’s scary. Because it’s painful. And because you have to do it on your own.
It’s easier to just stay in contr... Read more
Though the darkness struck me down hard...
I was recently hit hard with my depression, in reality my depression never really goes away but there have been some truly good days this last year; however that doesn't mean that after a long day or lots of socializing, stress, etc., that I don... Read more
Girl, I see you.
I had just started out on a popular nature trail for my run when I saw her... I was coming down a steep hill and there she was at the bottom, sweaty, with her phone in the air trying to get a selfie of the hard work she put in.
And then it happ... Read more
When it's just not working.
Starting over is hard, what's even harder is realizing and embracing the fact that you can't just exercise the weight off.
Despite going through this before already, I apparently developed the idea that if I ran and ran and ate "... Read more
An average day in my life with depression
Relieved to have your head hit the pillow at last, you're somewhere between laying down feels amazing and noticing every ache in every joint of your body... Read more
Fighting the Darkness in 2017
It's a new year and while everyone is in the middle of trying to accomplish their resolutions, I've done my annual goal list. I spend a lot of time think... Read more
Yes, I'm overweight again. No, I'm not done yet.
As of yesterday I'm now 8 months postpartum and I'm still exactly where I was weight wise post csection. My body isn't like most women in that I can't nu... Read more
A year-ish ago I wrote about the battle I was having with depression for about a year and a half, and how I had started an antidepressant as well. I had ... Read more
Fit & Healthy... What it is and isn't.
I had been beating myself up, this pregnancy just didn't seem to be going how I wanted or had planned. I was trying to be active, but it wasn't showing like my previous pregnancy. I was trying to be healthy throughout but it just seemed as if th... Read more
When Depression Sticks Around
I'm just a couple short months away from it being a year since I was "officially" diagnosed with depression but the symptoms have been around going on two years. Why a years difference? Because of denial when it was mentioned as a likely possibi... Read more
The Day My Husband Became A Marathoner
This is my account of my husband's journey to becoming a Marathoner.
We woke up quite early on race day, to ensure time to eat, get dressed, and make... Read more
Sidelined by depression
Depression is not a total foreign concept to me, I grew up with people close to me who struggled greatly with it. I’m aware depression varies from person to person on the extent of how they’re affected and even the reasons why they’re affected. ... Read more
Don't go back.
I said towards the beginning of this journey, about -25lbs in, "I'm in this for the long run... going back isn't an option... its just not."
Not a day goes by that I'm not thankful for that mindset.
I'm so glad when I came to the point of h... Read more
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celebrating 5 years of beating obesity. Before/after pics
This Sunday I will seal my 5 year journey with a kiss, the kiss is my first marathon, 26.2 miles to seal what I started. Don’t miss understand, it isn’t over, but it seems like a great way to close out five years.
I still remember how horrible... Read more