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Good Spark Day-Finally working out for me
Saturday, July 10, 2010      3 comments

It has been ungodly hot all up and down the East Coast this week and Boston was no exception. It was hard on me all week considering the A/C in my office does nothing and we are right next to a kitchen. I think I looked a fair bit wilted all wee... Read more
Your scale could be lying to you
Friday, July 09, 2010      19 comments

I know I tend to have a live and die by the numbers on the scale attitude and I am sure many of you do the same. This morning after weighing in and seeing only a .4 lb weight loss this week (yes, some is better than nothing) I decided to look in... Read more
Not eating, Not losing, Not happy
Thursday, July 08, 2010      16 comments

So apparently my life is a practice in extremes. I am either eating anything and everything in sight like a damn goat or I am a mathematically inclined food nazi militantly measuring and portioning my food and tracking every bite. The first half... Read more
Have you noticed everything tastes different?
Wednesday, July 07, 2010      5 comments

I was standing over my sink last night sniffling after I wrote my heart wrenching blog. I decided to start making my lunch for the next day. At least making something healthy would make me feel better on some level. I have started to enjoy the r... Read more
Hello, I am Ashley, and I am morbidly obese
Tuesday, July 06, 2010      19 comments

I know at the beginning of meetings for addictions they have to admit who they are and what they are addicted too. That it helps the healing process to begin. That is a phrase I have avoiding using my whole adult life. Even as I am writing this ... Read more
The hardest part of changing my lifestyle
Monday, July 05, 2010      3 comments

Surprisingly I have found that the hardest part of all of this for me is not even about the actual food. I have always loved healthy foods, I am not an anti-veggie person. I adore a big leafy salad on a hot summer day, hell, any day. Why this is... Read more
Day 7-Obsessing and Undereating
Wednesday, June 30, 2010      13 comments

So I have because completely obsessed with what goes in my mouth. Too much in fact. Almost everyday I have been under my recommended calories. I don't want to be this obsessed with food, good or bad. I love the nutrition tracker because this is ... Read more
Day 6-Learning the importance of planning ahead
Tuesday, June 29, 2010      6 comments

So this past weekend I was so proud of myself. I went to Trader Joe's ( I worship this store, healthy food for cheap, um yes please) and stocked up on all kinds of healthy items for my pantry. I felt great about it and made myself a nice dinner ... Read more
I can't even picture myself thin
Monday, June 28, 2010      6 comments

I realized last night, as I laid in bed unable to sleep, I do not remember a time I was satisfied with my body. I remember in 6th grade putting on a 15/16 pant and the look of utter disapproval on my mothers face. Actually I can not remember a m... Read more
Day 4-Water is so necessary!
Sunday, June 27, 2010      0 comments

I feel good about my eating today. I did not obsess and I am feeling more in tune with when I am full. I am not standing at the frig stuffing my face while I make dinner and I am making more concious decisions about what I buy and keep in the ho... Read more
Day 3
Saturday, June 26, 2010      0 comments

Wow, what a very long day. I am really enjoying this website a lot. The nutrition tracker was exactly what I needed. I didn't realize how many carbs I have been eating or that I tend to eat way too little one day and then overeat on other days. ... Read more
Day 2
Friday, June 25, 2010      1 comments

I do not feel great about how I started my morning. This would normally send me into a spiral of self loathing, binge eating and general depression. I am trying hard to recognize my triggers and avoid them as much as possible. My work is a big p... Read more
Day 1
Thursday, June 24, 2010      1 comments

Today is the first step in the repetition of first steps. Another attempt to slay the dragon that is my eating disorder. I do believe what I have is genetic, that I was screwed from the start. All the women in my father's side of the family are ... Read more

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