scale is fixed and i am back in the game. 350's here i come!
Monday, October 12, 2009      4 comments

i am soooooooo happy and proud to post that i have my scale back and i am weighing in at 362 today! it's amazing what seeing the numbers go down can do for your mindset as well as your body. i am not sure why but rather than losing say a c... Read more
I met Ruby :)
Sunday, September 27, 2009      17 comments

I met my idol Ruby Gettinger and she was even more amazing and personable than I thought she would be. She was doing a book signing for her book "Ruby's Diary" and before th... Read more
mini goal met and 80 pounds smashed!!!!
Monday, September 21, 2009      16 comments

here i sit 80 pounds less and more determined than ever to keep this momentum going and beat this beast. i weighed in at 366 this morning which is 5 pounds less than last week and it means i hit my recent mini goal of 367 and passed it by! i am... Read more
doctor frustration
Wednesday, September 02, 2009      11 comments

im over it--the whole doctor thing, really and truly. i have spent more time in doctor's offices in 2009 than i have in the last 15 years, i think. ugh. my right leg has been swelling up a bit recently and although i was too scared to go to... Read more
stress, birthday cake and mini goals
Monday, August 31, 2009      6 comments

happy monday morning! it soooo feels like a monday. i did not want any part of getting out of bed this morning--it was rough let me tell you. now i am up and on my second bottle of water and as much as i wish i was still laying in bed with DH a... Read more
Fall Down Seven Times, Get Up Eight --Japanese Proverb
Wednesday, August 26, 2009      7 comments

Hi, it's me and I am back after my dismal post yesterday. i am here to start fresh, start anew. I am here to get up for what feels like the eighth time. After my post yesterday, I did a lot of thinking, some whining and had nearly 10 inches ... Read more
destined to be fat forever????
Tuesday, August 25, 2009      7 comments

that is how i feel--especially how i was feeling yesterday. for the second week in a row i gained back weight i lost and i can't tell you how much that boils my blood. i feel like i have been doing that for the past year or so and i just am bey... Read more
i talk a good game
Wednesday, August 12, 2009      6 comments

but clearly my issues run deeper than i realized. i am embarrassed and ashamed to admit that i have slipped up, yet again! what is wrong with me? ugh. i have eaten nothing but junk for 3 days and feel like absolute dog crap as a result. what IS... Read more
cheeseburgers and coke.....a sad tale.
Monday, August 03, 2009      8 comments

i have always been "blessed" with the ability to diet for 2 weeks whereupon at the end of that time i fall completely back into love with the cheeseburgers and coca-cola that i swore i was divocing for good. this time though, i was more determin... Read more
hi, i'm hautemama and i'm an emotional eater
Monday, July 27, 2009      6 comments

it's not like i didn't realize it before but wow. i SO have this habit of wanting to run to the fridge and pantry when i'm upset or down about something and just stuff my face until i can't stuff anymore. i got really down yesterday about my hea... Read more
2009 and not feeling so fine
Monday, July 13, 2009      5 comments

eventhough i have been overweight most of my life i always thought of myself as relatively healthy. i will tell you in 2009 that i have spent more money on medical bills, co-pays, lab bills and rx coverage than i remember doing in a loooong time... Read more
anyone see that wagon?
Monday, June 15, 2009      6 comments

The one i fell off AGAIN. it's getting to be a little ridiculous, right? seriously. i need to get control of this monster like yesterday. i was in a conference this week and counting calories in my head rather than logging them--bad idea. i was ... Read more
fall and get back up.....
Monday, June 01, 2009      6 comments

well now that i have mastered the falling part, let's shoot for getting back up, shall we? if losing weight were only about what to eat and what not to eat this may be a very different ballgame. obviously though, it's about your mind, your menta... Read more
Thoughts & Prayers Would be Appreciated :)
Wednesday, May 13, 2009      8 comments

i returned from vacation and was at the doctor yesterday undergoing some testing that has me very concerned and worried. my 4 lbs vacation gain sadly seems to be the least of my worries right now. so, as i sit on pins and needles, waiting for my... Read more
back in the game
Friday, April 24, 2009      5 comments

i feel like im getting there--when i start to think about all the weight that i have to lose and the fact that i want to do it in like 1 month i get overwhelmed. i have to take a step back and look at the big picture--i need to do day by day, ho... Read more

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