Tuesday, May 19, 2009      1 comments

it seems as if my whole life, i placed the blame on everyone in my life for different transgressions... gradually i learned to take responisbility for my own actions. That took time and alot of self realization and basically alot of growing up t... Read more
reality check
Wednesday, May 06, 2009      0 comments

its been three years since my last physical.... a long time i know, however the last time i was in pediatrics with my mom and my doctor that i had had since I was 2. i was 217 about forty punds less than when i last saw her. Today i went on my p... Read more
omg om gomg omg omg
Tuesday, May 05, 2009      3 comments

i just gotta say this... i need to share... okay are u ready?? okay.. today i stayed within my calorie rainge.. NOT ONLY did I do that.. but i ate ANYTHING i wanted! this is the frist time I ever ate whatever I wanted and stayed in my calorie ra... Read more
Tuesday, May 05, 2009      1 comments

so i grraduated from school, got a job.. got a new man, felt like i was going somewhere and was so happy with losing weight.. that i took a longgggg break... i realized i was so happy and so preoocupied with other things i totaly forgot about th... Read more
Friday, February 13, 2009      2 comments

i know I've lost weight.. obviously the scale says it all.. but somehow deep down inside.. i still feel as if i'm horrible looking.. For instance.. i did my before and after of me at 276 to 265... since the diet in general i've lost four inches ... Read more
pat on the back
Sunday, February 08, 2009      0 comments

so.. i thought i had a bad week.. lol.. and it was for the craziest reason.. i thought this week I did bad becuae I had a bag of doritos and chinese food one day.. and then another.. my friends had a pot luck at school.. and I had one slice of c... Read more
HA! take that satan!
Monday, February 02, 2009      4 comments

so uh.. i'm 20 lbs down..... two weeks ago.. i actually wanted to give up.. it was as if i was allowing the enemy to take over yet again.. I ate a whole bag of doritos (cool ranch my fav) i meean the whole damn bag of the super size.. i wanted t... Read more
Wednesday, January 21, 2009      0 comments

Pledge that during the BLC5 I will... good to my body and fill it with healthy foods and enough water to drown a fish. ...treat myself and my teammates with kindness and love. ...weigh in every week, no matter if I lost, ... Read more
Wednesday, January 07, 2009      1 comments

Song listening to : Barlow Girl-surrender mood: content a part of me wants to g ive up.. this is the ump teenth times I've tried to lose weight. Sometimes during the day I'll feel so negative about my progress. People make fun of... Read more