ELISA121's Blogs

Big relevation
Thursday, May 10, 2012      2 comments

It has been ages since I stepped on the scale. I was afraid! This morning I was forced on because ofnanfitness evaluation. And it was a big shock! 151 pounds! I never weighed that much in my life considering I am only five feet tall! I thought I... Read more
Weight gain after weight loss
Sunday, December 18, 2011      1 comments

So I gained all my weight back after 30 pounds of weight loss i am disgusted of myself, I just kepted on binging and all weight came back before I know it also stress in work made me even want to eat more. I know it's not good but I have a hard ... Read more
a moody day
Saturday, March 12, 2011      1 comments

I dont know what happened today, but I feel a bit down, and hate myself. I felt lonely, bored, and feel like a failure. I kept on beating myself up with all those negative comments which result me being extremely paranoid, and become intolera... Read more
holding on
Friday, March 11, 2011      1 comments

I think WW is great. I enrolled their online program and it seems to have helped me from binging. It made me realize that I can have everything but keep under my budget. So instead of randomly putting food into my mouth, I start to become picky ... Read more
joined WW
Saturday, March 05, 2011      2 comments

I joined weight watchers online last wk. I think the prog is really good for me. the points plan is working bc u get to save them. and in case I make a mistake, I wont opt for all or nothing approach bc I know that as long as I dont go over the ... Read more
a morning binge
Sunday, February 20, 2011      1 comments

a no change in scale made me defeated, this morning I binged again...I felt so bad afterwards it seems I could never go for a month w/o binging. I have to remain positive positive positive but I feel I am lacking it at times and I gave in t... Read more
wk 1 recap
Saturday, February 19, 2011      1 comments

this week is going pretty k, although there r many ups and downs, sometimes I feel super depressed especially when I no longer fit into my jeans and also when I see skinny girls pass me by, I kept on saying to myself that I used to be like that ... Read more
a crying moment
Sunday, February 13, 2011      2 comments

I had a very sad moment today, I cried and cried, I feel sad, feel defeated, feel how I let myself get here in the first place, a rush of regret, self-guilt, self-loathing pouring over me. Then I calm down, then I realized how I get here is bc... Read more
just do it
Saturday, February 12, 2011      1 comments

I luv this logo, this morning I decided to pick up running (I use to run for 40min everyday before I fell off the wagon), I decided to put a stop to all my fears: maybe I cant run bc all extra weight, what if I bump into people I know, they will... Read more
a reality check
Saturday, February 12, 2011      1 comments

I took a very good look at myself in the mirror today. I cant believe what I am looking at....a whole wk and half binging turned my midsection to a gigantic balloon...I felt disgusted I look like a sumo wrestler. what has happened to the skinny ... Read more
pondering a soln
Friday, February 11, 2011      1 comments

maybe I am setting a goal way too high for me to reach...I should at least be able to control my binging before trying to lose weight. I have to get down to the main root of my problem. every day in the morning, I feel the craving....maybe it'... Read more
morning binge and craving
Friday, February 11, 2011      2 comments

now my biggest prob is that immediately I open my eyes in the morning, the first idea that comes into my mind is food and lots lots of them. then I want to eat all of them at once, I would start planning to get hold of them and eat them. and a... Read more
disheartened, tired, unmotivated
Wednesday, February 09, 2011      2 comments

yea, these three adjectives r truly describing how I feel right now. I am feeling like giving up, even I try to read SP motivational pages, I still couldn't get my motivation back. I feel lazy and feel like be secluded in my own world and eat li... Read more
binge day 4
Sunday, February 06, 2011      6 comments

I had a good three wks w/o binge. but this week my binge monster got control over me. and I have been binging for c0nsecutively 4 days. each day I kept telling myself that I will start over tomorrow, but when tomorrow comes, I gave up and feel a... Read more
a glimpse of binge monster
Thursday, January 20, 2011      1 comments

today when I was alone, I had a transient feeling of binging. and then I try to stop it bc I know if I dont stop it soon I will be going downspiral from there. I tried to analyze my feelings, I think its the negativity calling towards me agai... Read more

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