I haven't worn those in a while. :)
Tuesday, January 26, 2010      1 comments

In spite of everything that has hit me the last month I found myself able to slip into a pair of pants I have not been able to pull on since before I got pregnant and lost the baby. It felt so nice to pull them on and not have them falling off o... Read more
feeling good? Huh?WOW!
Monday, January 25, 2010      1 comments

Whining till I can do it helped me get off my butt and just do what I can do. I guess working out regularly helped me bounce back quickly from my surgery. Today I went for my daily walk and the home stretch was too soon. I thought to myself (don... Read more
Can I have the rest of my life back now please?
Friday, January 22, 2010      2 comments

Feeling some depression from the weather and just some things that reminded me.My incision site is itchy and tender to touch. It reminds me every time I have to mess with it or feel pain from it that I don't have a baby coming anymore. The bad w... Read more
New goals andother ramblings
Tuesday, January 19, 2010      2 comments

I'm in the middle of healing my body and grieving my loss. Somehow the two are going hand in hand. Trying to figure out what is considered light exercise. I want to start walking so that when I'm cleared for going back to the gym I can do it and... Read more
My body is healing
Saturday, January 16, 2010      2 comments

I had a visit with the OB office yesterday to do a incision check. I'm healing up nicely. Still have not been cleared to go back to the gym yet.I still have a lot of pain though from my body trying to put things back together.Life is returning t... Read more
My feelings over the loss
Tuesday, January 05, 2010      3 comments

Sometimes I wish that I had never gotten pregnant with our surprise baby.It ended so badly and I'm so torn up over the loss.My DH can't stand to talk about it with me and is having a hard time with it all. I'm trying to put into words how the a ... Read more
Back with sad news
Wednesday, December 30, 2009      6 comments

My excitement and joy turned to sadness and terror when our baby turned out to be a ectopic pregnancy.We had no reason to think it would be a issue but the day after Christmas I was rushed to the ER.From there it was discovered I had a ruptured ... Read more
God Laughed
Monday, November 30, 2009      2 comments

God decided that he would favor me.You see I thought that after three years of no baby with very slack FAM.Surely God was done gifting me with babies.SURELY.God laughed and I laughed with him.On a day when there was NO WAY I should have been abl... Read more
Another good day.
Wednesday, November 04, 2009      1 comments

It is a couple of days now since we turned in the keys to the old apartment.I am so happy to be in the new house.Finding the time and energy to exercise is no problem here.Getting to the gym on the other hand....I only make it in once a week to ... Read more
Today the weightloss ticker is true!
Monday, October 26, 2009      2 comments

YAY! I had a Dr appt today to get my TSH levels drawn and to see how my new anti anxiety drugs are treating me.So we begin with the weigh in.190 down 4lbs in the last month.It is not big but for me it is huge.Especially since I have sworn off th... Read more
I-M R-E-A-D-Y !
Monday, October 19, 2009      0 comments

I'm picking back up with my workouts and my new trainer is so different than the last three people I have worked with.My last trainer left to go be a firefighter,so I got the new guy.The guy before got tired of me not losing any weight and the o... Read more
I have a Ice cream monster
Tuesday, October 13, 2009      2 comments

Monster is a very apt description of the dear child who hounds me till I think I will go insane."ice cream,please" with a sweet smile to "Ice cream!" as she climbs up on my lap and holds my face in her hands to make her point.She still doesn't g... Read more
No more scales!
Sunday, October 11, 2009      2 comments

I'm swiftly coming to the conclusion that my blog is where I hash it all out.I don't give the details but I do give the I failed,I won events and let you in on health issues that are bothering me.I come in a lot and end up deleting a lot of stuf... Read more
I've got my groove back!
Tuesday, October 06, 2009      3 comments

I have finally gotten back down to 190! A few weeks away from the gym and the butt load of stress caused me to drop some LBS.I guess anxiety for me causes me to just not be able to eat.It did not help that I was constantly nauseated.The drugs ha... Read more
Waiting for change
Wednesday, September 30, 2009      3 comments

Still haven't found that inner peace but feeling better than the last post.I was feeling so toxic for a while there.Just so full of anger and indignation that my issue had gotten so out of control.It doesn't help that the depression was creeping... Read more

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