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Long time
Friday, October 20, 2017      6 comments

Hello spark friends. I just got my computer back from being fixed. Lotsa water under the bridge. Bad news is, I'm back to an fairly high point in my current weight. I've gained back all that I've lost in the past 10 years. Good news ... Read more
Starting over
Saturday, June 17, 2017      7 comments

Ok. I'm starting over. Going through changes. Therapy helps. So does doing things that feed and nourish my soul. Yeah, I'm smoking again. Bad, I know. And I'm drinking. Not to excess, but there was a time that I wasn't drinking at all. Yeah, I... Read more
MAY 2017 DRIVING VLOG (video blog)
Thursday, June 01, 2017      6 comments

I describe revelations on what I did in the past wherein I was successful, with the past 20 years, where I have failed miserably... to lose weight.... Read more
The day
Monday, May 29, 2017      3 comments

I know this is better if it is more specifically directed, but I just feel the need to share, so here I am. I'm more lonely than anything else, and I've got a house guest, my brother, who has been with me since yesterday. After 24 ho... Read more
choose my thought
Friday, March 24, 2017      3 comments

On my way home from work today, I came to the realization: I need to decide to change my thinking about food and the moment to moment choices I have every day, that together add up to failure or success with getting healthy and losing weight. ... Read more
journaling (video blog)
Saturday, September 17, 2016      5 comments

Damon describes the benefits of journaling... Read more
Saturday, September 17, 2016      3 comments

I feel like I am a prisoner in my own life. I'm acting out and pigging out on fast food to make myself feel better. It's kind of a crisis because I'm gaining weight and I'm concerned that I'm going to get diabetes or something else RIGHT NOW; v... Read more
Affirmations, love, depression, rest, workaholics anonymous, and the journey called life
Saturday, September 10, 2016      3 comments

I had a long weekend recently and I had high-hopes for fun, and I ended up being depressed all week--I was in a 3 day depression binge. When I have to work I'm galvanized and when I don't, I simply get depressed. I want to accomplish things an... Read more
working 346 hours a week
Friday, September 02, 2016      3 comments

I am starting a new part-time job, in addition to my regular job. It's a job I've done before. It's more stressful than my regular job. And, ya know, the stress is not good. Things like, figuring out when and where I can go to the bathroom--yo... Read more
Hugs and Journals, Kites and Jobs
Thursday, September 01, 2016      2 comments

I took a rare morning off yesterday. I hung out, slept in and contemplated my navel. Actually, it has been many a moon since I contemplated my navel. I can't even SEE MY NAVEL. When I shower, I reach down there... feel around the middle of my bu... Read more
The big evil computer. The reason for massive obesity.
Wednesday, August 31, 2016      4 comments

As I blogged yesterday, I created first-hand testimony to myself. I recognized that sitting in front of the computer is not the best thing. Yet, last night I sat there till 12:30am, after blogging that I will work on not sitting in front of the ... Read more
Late Night Eating/Emotional Vulnerability
Tuesday, August 30, 2016      1 comments

I have an inability to stop late night bingeing. It's a supreme problem. I'm unable to stop eating at night and my behaviors are so consistent. Consistently bad. I get tired and I go to "Oh, Gosh, I just need to relax now.!" And then I relax and... Read more
Thought Processing
Thursday, August 25, 2016      2 comments

I'm getting more things done, and that makes me feel good. I want to communicate, so I blog, it helps me. It's the UPWARD spiral I long for re: my self-esteem. Behaviors that by their action reward me, tend to make me feel good. Isn't that... Read more
Thought/Emotional Choices
Wednesday, August 24, 2016      4 comments

I’ve been sleeping better since I quit smoking. I’m feeling better. The pain in my chest, the trouble breathing, the staying up late, the headaches; all can be attributed to smoking. Now that I’ve quit (knock on wood!)… I think these problems w... Read more
Depression and Upsets and Eating
Tuesday, August 23, 2016      2 comments

I'm stressing out about work and about money. I'm unable to pay all my bills, and concerned about that. I'm not able to pay my student loans and am concerned about getting my wages garnished, and all of these things are weighing on me, and so my... Read more

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