Hello spark friends. I just got my computer back from being fixed.
Lotsa water under the bridge. Bad news is, I'm back to an fairly high point in my current weight. I've gained back all that I've lost in the past 10 years.
Good news ... Read more
Ok. I'm starting over. Going through changes. Therapy helps. So does doing things that feed and nourish my soul. Yeah, I'm smoking again. Bad, I know. And I'm drinking. Not to excess, but there was a time that I wasn't drinking at all. Yeah, I... Read more
MAY 2017 DRIVING VLOG
I describe revelations on what I did in the past wherein I was successful, with the past 20 years, where I have failed miserably... to lose weight.... Read more
I know this is better if it is more specifically directed, but I just feel the need to share, so here I am.
I'm more lonely than anything else, and I've got a house guest, my brother, who has been with me since yesterday.
After 24 ho... Read more
choose my thought
On my way home from work today, I came to the realization: I need to decide to change my thinking about food and the moment to moment choices I have every day, that together add up to failure or success with getting healthy and losing weight.
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Damon describes the benefits of journaling... Read more
I feel like I am a prisoner in my own life. I'm acting out and pigging out on fast food to make myself feel better. It's kind of a crisis because I'm gaining weight and I'm concerned that I'm going to get diabetes or something else RIGHT NOW; v... Read more
Affirmations, love, depression, rest, workaholics anonymous, and the journey called life
I had a long weekend recently and I had high-hopes for fun, and I ended up being depressed all week--I was in a 3 day depression binge. When I have to work I'm galvanized and when I don't, I simply get depressed. I want to accomplish things an... Read more
working 346 hours a week
I am starting a new part-time job, in addition to my regular job. It's a job I've done before. It's more stressful than my regular job. And, ya know, the stress is not good. Things like, figuring out when and where I can go to the bathroom--yo... Read more
Hugs and Journals, Kites and Jobs
I took a rare morning off yesterday. I hung out, slept in and contemplated my navel. Actually, it has been many a moon since I contemplated my navel. I can't even SEE MY NAVEL. When I shower, I reach down there... feel around the middle of my bu... Read more
The big evil computer. The reason for massive obesity.
As I blogged yesterday, I created first-hand testimony to myself. I recognized that sitting in front of the computer is not the best thing. Yet, last night I sat there till 12:30am, after blogging that I will work on not sitting in front of the ... Read more
Late Night Eating/Emotional Vulnerability
I have an inability to stop late night bingeing. It's a supreme problem. I'm unable to stop eating at night and my behaviors are so consistent. Consistently bad. I get tired and I go to "Oh, Gosh, I just need to relax now.!" And then I relax and... Read more
I'm getting more things done, and that makes me feel good.
I want to communicate, so I blog, it helps me. It's the UPWARD spiral I long for re: my self-esteem. Behaviors that by their action reward me, tend to make me feel good. Isn't that... Read more
I’ve been sleeping better since I quit smoking. I’m feeling better. The pain in my chest, the trouble breathing, the staying up late, the headaches; all can be attributed to smoking. Now that I’ve quit (knock on wood!)… I think these problems w... Read more
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Depression and Upsets and Eating
I'm stressing out about work and about money. I'm unable to pay all my bills, and concerned about that. I'm not able to pay my student loans and am concerned about getting my wages garnished, and all of these things are weighing on me, and so my... Read more