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I don't think I can do this anymore...
Friday, August 05, 2011      15 comments

The last two days in the new place have been so lonely. I am trying to get internet and tv hooked up so it doesn't feel so bad. But until it's done, I can't stand the silence. Colin has been over a few times. He's helping me with stuff -... Read more
Today is the first day of the Rest Of My LIFE!!!
Wednesday, August 03, 2011      15 comments

Last night I finally spent alone in my new place. It's the first night I've spent alone in a place in years. Not that I sleep around. Between family, pets, friends, there is almost always been someone else in the house when I'm sleeping. Not... Read more
Time to SNAP OUT OF IT!!!
Tuesday, August 02, 2011      9 comments

Okay, even I know it's not always that easy. But I also know when it's time for some tough love, and starting to kick my own butt. TODAY IS THAT DAY!!! Yes, this weekend was hard. It's going to still hurt on and off for a while. De... Read more
Today - Emotional stuff you may want to skip over...
Tuesday, August 02, 2011      6 comments

My head hurts today. So does my stomach. It's stress. I was overwhelmed yesterday at the thought of Colin coming home to find me moved out. I guess once he got to town and saw all my stuff gone, he jumped in his truck and started ... Read more
Just a quick note to follow up on the weekend...
Monday, August 01, 2011      13 comments

I moved yesterday morning. I was completely out of the house by 9:30am. Drinking by 10am. Yes, I know. But I was hurting. Needed to just get away from it all. Anyhow, I still have one more load to unload from my van. The new pla... Read more
Wavering while packing ... in the middle of the night ... HELP!
Sunday, July 31, 2011      14 comments

I guess I should start by saying it's almost 2am. The only reason I'm up is because I can't sleep. So what do I decide to do? start packing. Colin texted me in the evening while I was watching the football game. He was trying to b... Read more
Decision is made. Now where to go?
Saturday, July 30, 2011      14 comments

Thank you to all my sparkfriends, I've decided I'm moving out. My only problem now is where to go. I think I know. My boss at work offered me one of the houses. Usually they rent out the rooms at 2ppl/room. Crowded and expensive.... Read more
Had to blog again ... update
Friday, July 29, 2011      14 comments

Okay, so I went home and started packing. I was even excited to get moving... Then the text messages started from Colin. They are actually happening as I am writing this. I just don't know what to do. It's taking all I have to... Read more
Today ... emotional stuff again. Sorry
Friday, July 29, 2011      17 comments

I'm not in a good place today. I am exhausted. I didn't sleep more than an hour or so last night. Just couldn't sleep. I think it's finally done. Room mate has pushed me too far. I called and asked if the spare room is still available ... Read more
Something as simple as a kiss...
Thursday, July 28, 2011      6 comments

... can invoke the most incredible memories. And motivation. Motivation to move forward with life. To move away from things that are hurting you and towards things that will make your life so much more rewarding. It can be so full of pos... Read more
Today ... more emotional stuff you may want to skip.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011      3 comments

What a couple of days. I just don't know anymore. I'm feeling better than I have in a while. Oh, for anyone who knows, I had a date late last week. Well, it seemed to go fine, but I don't think things are going to work out. Yes, ... Read more
A bit of motivation...
Wednesday, July 27, 2011      8 comments

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Need some personal advice ladies. Okay, guys input would be nice too.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011      14 comments

There is someone who's caught my eye recently. Don't know him well enough to know if there's ever going to be anything there. But I am definitely interested in finding out. The problem? He's a friend of a friend. I am not comfortable en... Read more
Tuesday, July 26, 2011      4 comments

What a revelation. I think I'm finally starting to get it. Anyone who's been following my blogs know the rough journey I've been on since last fall. Falling for the wrong guy. Finding out someone I really cared about only wants to be fri... Read more
Thursday, July 21, 2011      10 comments

Guess this date thing has me more excited than I thought. I am really REALLY looking forward to getting out tonight. Jamie wants to go for a drive. Just go and chat. My first thought was to wonder about trusting him. But I do. I'm not... Read more

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