BETHANY39's Blogs

Friday, March 19, 2010      11 comments

I am scared stiff. My last blog entry was about finally understanding the walls that I've built around myself. The way fat insulates me from the things I fear. But now that I've really started thinking about these things I'm terrified. I can't s... Read more
Security blankets ( They aren't just for Linus)
Sunday, March 14, 2010      8 comments

I had a moment of epiphany today. I think the main reason I'm having such a hard time losing weight now is because I've made it my security blanket. You see I'm at a very fragile place in my life right now. Most of the time I don't know up from ... Read more
Why can't I take a trip and diet at the same time??!!
Friday, March 12, 2010      9 comments

I love to go places. Even if it's just for a couple of days and close to home. There's just something wonderful about changing the scenery I see almost everyday. Throw in a couple of good friends and life is truly blessed and good. There is on... Read more
Please remember me...
Monday, March 08, 2010      19 comments

Hi all!! If your a person that believes in prayer I ask you to pray for me. I'm facing several things in my life that I just don't see a way around. Of course I know even though I can't see my out God can. He know's best in all things including ... Read more
How do you keep that high???
Wednesday, March 03, 2010      5 comments

Ok my peeps, I need some help. Can anyone tell me how to keep that high going. I have days where I feel like I can kick anythings butt that gets in my way. I am fierce. I am Laura Croft and The Black Mamba all rolled into one. (Yep I do love a g... Read more
Monday, March 01, 2010      3 comments

I am at a most interesting point in my life. I feel like I have the opportunity to make so many major changes. To possibly change everything. It's so scary. I feel like every nerve in my body is is constantly firing. Sometimes I find myself shak... Read more
The dollar value menu aka the conspiracy to keep me fat!
Monday, February 22, 2010      4 comments

The dollar value menu is the bain of my existence. Sigh. A double cheeseburger for a dollar? Really??? A small fry to go with that? Sure. Would I like a nice sugar laden drink? Why not. lol You know in the past I at least felt bad about spendi... Read more
Sunday, February 21, 2010      4 comments

I can not believe how beautiful it is today!!!! The sun is shining. The birds are singing. It's almost 65 degrees out there!!!! I just feel as light and sunny as the day is. Just like I want to give everyone a hug and a smile. ... Read more
Saturday, February 20, 2010      7 comments

It's such an insideous thing. It's sneaky and dispicable. It comes from left field and smacks you in head when your not looking. The worst thing of all........ I do it to myself!!!!! lol I am what stands between me and my weight loss. I can't ... Read more
Can I get and amen??
Wednesday, February 10, 2010      7 comments

I sit here today wondering how I got here. I have turned over in my mind the choices I have made that brought me to this point. There are so many things I would have diffrently had I known the way my life would have turned out. I guess that's wh... Read more
No excuses left......
Sunday, February 07, 2010      1 comments

Time to get down to business. I'm feeling better so it's time to buckle down. I'm ready to learn to eat to live, instead of living to eat. It's really true you know. Food should be nothing more to any of us than fuel. If we could actually do th... Read more
I haven't had the best start.....
Friday, January 15, 2010      3 comments

I'm so upset with myself. I can't seem to get things going. I have good intentions but I can't seem to follow through. I know until I give myself a break this will never work. I expect so much out of me. More than anyone else ever would. Every ... Read more
One more time....... lol
Saturday, January 09, 2010      3 comments

I laugh because I can't count how many times I've said this is the last time. I suppose it isn't really a laughing matter but believe it's better to laugh than cry. I've got to make it this time. There's no choice. I'm tired of being a scared li... Read more