ANNTORR53's Blogs

Big step in growth
Monday, January 30, 2012      4 comments

In my last entry I shared how my brother and I do not get along. I normally get mad, hold my feelings inside until I blow. Well this time I am taking a different approach. My mother asked me today if I would be willing to counsel with our pas... Read more
90 year old mom
Thursday, January 26, 2012      5 comments

My mom called me this am at 6:00. I was too asleep to anwser the phone. She and I and my brother had a falling out about 1 month ago. My brother is mean and abusive and I was hurt because she didn't defend me. She aske me to leave her house.... Read more
So Hard on Myself
Saturday, January 07, 2012      2 comments

It is 2a, in the morning. I woke up wemt downstairs amd had some yogurt. Now I am internaly beating myself up. "I will never loose. i have gained since starting sp" others loose but me I just a looser". I don't excersise. This isn't meant ... Read more
December 12, 2011
Monday, December 12, 2011      2 comments

Today's weight was 162.2..........I try to not get discouraged. Sometimes I wonder if happiness just isn't meant for me. Like I don't desearve it. I know I am playing the negative tapes in my mind and am trying to block them out. That is eas... Read more
Thursday, December 08, 2011      4 comments

Weighed in at 163.....Didn't excersise as I fell asleep 15 minutes after I got home from work last night. I needed it. I miss the guy I was dating.........crud....... Read more
December 7, 2011
Wednesday, December 07, 2011      1 comments

This morning weighed in at 165.2.....(-6.6) Better than yesterday but have a long way to go. I am cutting down my portion control just a bit. Nothing major, just a little here and there. I have also decided to stop easing my stress and emotion... Read more
Excercised today
Tuesday, December 06, 2011      6 comments

Well, I am going to start to excersise. Mind you it won't be alot but I will give it what I have. Laying around after work and sitting at a desk all day just isn't doing it! I have lost control and have been eating whatever I want. Not a goo... Read more
Fail fail fail..........?????
Wednesday, November 30, 2011      3 comments

I began my journey April 2010. I was recovering from back surgery and so excited that I could walk, ride a bike, make my bed! Talk about tiny steps. Well, here I am a year and a half later and weigh more than when I started. crazy huh.......... Read more
I was a bad girl!
Friday, October 14, 2011      3 comments

Well, today was work potluck. I had everything planned. I ate a healthy bowl of aotmeal for breakfast so I wouldn't get the morning munchies as the girls brought in their freshly baked and homemade goodies. I sat at my desk and smelled the pu... Read more
From the mouth of babes.
Thursday, October 06, 2011      4 comments

Can't believe we are in another season. I think it is tomorrow we begin fall. This last year has been utter Hell. I have no other way to describe it. I was pushed to my limit and my body reacted. I am at the highest weight ever. My blood p... Read more
Thursday, March 17, 2011      0 comments

Well. it's been a while since I have left a blog. Haven't been doing well. I went to see my doctor on Monday. For years now I have had different syptoms that I have ignorned and blamed on aging. I am 54. My memory is getting scattered and f... Read more
Hunger Real/or imagined
Tuesday, January 04, 2011      5 comments

Yesterday was my 9th day sticking to program. I was so hungry it was unbearable. I ate extra protein hoping that would subside the pangs in my stomach. I fell asleep and woke up at 9:45pm. Now, it was very cold outside and my craving was for... Read more
Round 2
Tuesday, December 28, 2010      2 comments

Starting again. Things are settleing in life. Christmas was wonderful. Watching the joy in thRe children's faces. I have 9 grandchildren. The 2 2year olds were just bouncing up and down. I enjoyed watching them so much. Oh to be a child a... Read more
Day 12
Saturday, December 11, 2010      2 comments

R1P3D12-131.6 This isn't normal weight loss. It is weight loss because of my current loss. The deep pit in my stomch is getting a bit better but still very little appetite. i know things will get better soon. I have had insomnia for the... Read more
Day 10
Thursday, December 09, 2010      1 comments

R1P3D1-134.8... Read more

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