What is wrong with me.

Saturday, December 29, 2007

Ok this will probably be scattered but I have to get it out. I have done nothing but stuff myself since the 23rd of December. My dad broke my heart on that day and I got my monthly visitor... I beat myself up by stuffing myself and trying to fill that emptiness inside... I hate when I do and in return it makes me do it more.

I am done with it... I HAVE to treat my self better... I have to take care of me. I care so much about so many people and in truth I would not (and do not) treat my worst enemy as badly as I treat myself.

I have to find my strength... What is it that will make me strong? I have to believe... I have to...
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    I hope you are having a better day now! Remember what you said on your start must change the way you talk to yourself. You experienced a few depressing events...surround that with lots of good Christmas food, and you did what most of us would have done: you pigged out! I, like Lisa, put on a lot of pounds in Dec. I just decided that my resolution would be to do what i can to lose those pounds quickly (during Jan). What we must NEVER do (i struggle too) is tell ourselves that there must be "something wrong" with us. Tell yourself instead...ok - that was not a great decision, now let's do it differently today. you can do it! You ARE worth it!
    3820 days ago
  • LISA_074
    I know how you feel about stuffing yourself. I pretty much did that the entire month of December. I lost 12lbs in November, and gained 7 back in December. I am also and emotional eater. Now, I took up crocheting and knitting to help me not eat. It keeps my fingers busy, and helps me stop thinking of food. I also have a huge bottle of water sitting next to me. I hope you can find some help here on spark to get you through your rough times. I am around quite often if you need a chat. Stay strong. You can do this.
    Take Care of you!
    3823 days ago
    angela have you tried to replace foodwith something you like to do for comfort??? read-artsy stuff-go for a walk? call someone??? post to us on spark???? :)
    i am an emotional eater too-& i have found starting a new project helps me-some of the time not all but its a start.
    journaling helps too-
    wish you lots of love & happiness!!!
    3824 days ago
    Angela, I think it's pretty normal for everyone to eat when we're emotional! I'm sorry you're having a rough time of it. It's good that you're writing and sharing your thoughts. I would suggest you keep writing and posting like you have been. It might help to keep your mind off of your troubles. Eatng for comfort is like an addiction, we stop when we're ready, and it's so easy to relapse. After all, we need to eat to survive! Try finding other ways to comfort yourself, or make some healthy comfort food like chicken & vegetable soup, or some stir fry...

    You're in good company my friend! You are strong, and we're here for you!

    (((HUGS!))) ~Sheri
    3827 days ago
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