Humility is a virtue, Part Deux
Friday, December 14, 2007
It's Christmas and of course we are busier than usual -- but more of a controlled crazy -- not the blow out days when the kids were young!! We've decorated the tree, hung stockings from the mantle, and purchased all kinds of treats and gifts for those we love and adore (especially our fur children!!).
When I got to my initial weight loss goal, I decided to re-commit to losing an additional amount of weight (to be determined). Soon thereafter, I joined the Spark Community (Bless you, Brother Dave!). Now I promise that I'm old enough (ah-hem) to know that life is a process, not an event -- and it has taken this long to find peace in that statement (ok -- so I admit to being a slow learner, too!!) So here I am, going along merrily in life -- doing my plan; enjoying my daily run 6 days a week/3.50 miles a day; adding exercises to continually challenge myself (circuit training, weights, crunches on the ball). I'm going along as if nothing occurred in 1989 that would preclude me from doing hard core exercises as if to say with arrogance, "what (car) accident?? what (back/leg) injuries?? what paresthesia?? what weakness?? After my workout and run last Sunday night, it wasn't long into the evening that I felt the effects of the days' events. I thought the stiffness and pain was "the"usual" stuff I deal with every day -- maybe a little more than usual, but, hey -- I can deal with it. During the night, my concern turned into anxiety and fear when the pain became excrutiating and the throbbing unbearable. Nothing brought relief -- heating pad, Mineral Ice, Motrin ... and as I lay in the dark, I was transported back to 1989 with memories of my car accident playing in my mind like a bad video game -- all in slow motion.
This experience took me by surprise. A lot of what I thought was true for me about my physical health and how far I'd come, ultimately was not... I guess I forgot from where I came -- I forgot, on some level, that it is the journey not the destination. But life, such as it is, is ready to humble me and remind me where we're at -- and where we need to go. So here I am -- a ready and willing, student of life!