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Getting back on track

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

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Lifting yourself up and continuing forward

Does it ever feel like trouble follows you around and won't cut you any slack? Sometimes it feels like you can't buy a break and everything you try just makes things worse. Who could blame you for feeling sorry for yourself or not forgive a little self-destructive behavior? Bad idea. The new, healthy way to spend down times is to lift yourself up and operate at a higher level. Remember that what happens to you is not who you are. It's history. It's past. Your true self takes that history and decides how to make the best possible future out of it. You have the power to keep your attitude and values from driving into the ditch along with the events in your life. From defeat, you can still emerge victorious.

This is timely as so often seems to be the case. The last couple of weeks have been more than challenging. In fact, except for losing my father, this was the most difficult time in my life. And that's saying a lot with all the things that have happened in the past.
I chose to allow myself to wallow in self pity. I can remember thoughts like, "who wouldn't allow themselves some comfort? I can always get back on track later, what difference does it make anyway?"
Well, it made 3 lbs difference, but more than that, it took away my joy. I began to be fearful that I was on a slippery slope and couldn't stop making bad choices. I even avoided posting for a few days and for me, that is a sign of big trouble. For me, it means I am avoiding reality and not being accountable.
I'm not 100% back yet, but I did go to they gym yesterday. However, I was supposed to finish my workout last night and didn't. I did track my food for the first time in probably 2 weeks tho. I even admitted to the 4 oz of baked lays and included them. Amazingly, I didn't go over my limits. I am often afraid to see what damage I've done and as is true with many things, I've worried over nothing.
So, here's to letting go of my bad choices and moving on. I am very grateful to have SP and my friends here. I know it's what has helped me get back to making wise choices instead of giving up as I have so often in the past.
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  • DOITFORME4
    You are so right. Thew universe conspires to give you just what yyou need at just the right time. Unfortunately we often don't even recognise it or see it. Becoming more aware of these things is part of ourgrowth.

    Re your current difficulties --I'm not one who believes they're purposely sent to punish or try you;; BUT I totally believe life offers you these occasions (THe good and the bad) and itis up to you what you do with them. Do you become stronger/wiser/better,or do get bitter, discouragred, hate and punish yourself. Do you look after yourself and cut yourself some slack when life gets tough or do you demand perfection (which usually ends badly)


    If one of us, your teammates was going through this, you would write an amazing post to them to help you through this. Why don't you spare yourself 10 mins to write a post to yourself.


    By the way re exercise, you're probably getting heaps. What you need is sleep, rest, nutritious food and a venting spot. Do you journal??? Keep up with the food tracking. You'll probably stress less knowing what's really going in your mouth. Lying to ourselves never works; guess what--We know we are lying.


    Wishing you all the best through these hard times. Lots of hugs and warm fuzzies being sent your way.

    Karen

    4883 days ago
  • THREEE
    one other thing you did...you offered help to others...yesterday is when i got my invite to join camp lose-a lot(for which i thank you)...THAT is one of the very things right here at spark they have suggested helps get you out of a self-focused downslide...your timeliness for me was PERFECT...i have in the last 4 days(back to friday) been exceeding my calories humongously!!! and the scale went berserk--yesterday, i was 11 pounds higher than last week's low...i practically know that is not permanent gain(i believe i've eaten more salt in these last 4 days than i probably did in the whole month of november)...it is still discouraging...but getting to see my little stinkerdinks yesterday and your invitation and my swap with my mom of airdyne and stationary bike have all conspired to GET ME BACK ON TRACK... THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU...karen3
    4885 days ago
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