Getting back on track
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
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Lifting yourself up and continuing forward
Does it ever feel like trouble follows you around and won't cut you any slack? Sometimes it feels like you can't buy a break and everything you try just makes things worse. Who could blame you for feeling sorry for yourself or not forgive a little self-destructive behavior? Bad idea. The new, healthy way to spend down times is to lift yourself up and operate at a higher level. Remember that what happens to you is not who you are. It's history. It's past. Your true self takes that history and decides how to make the best possible future out of it. You have the power to keep your attitude and values from driving into the ditch along with the events in your life. From defeat, you can still emerge victorious.
This is timely as so often seems to be the case. The last couple of weeks have been more than challenging. In fact, except for losing my father, this was the most difficult time in my life. And that's saying a lot with all the things that have happened in the past.
I chose to allow myself to wallow in self pity. I can remember thoughts like, "who wouldn't allow themselves some comfort? I can always get back on track later, what difference does it make anyway?"
Well, it made 3 lbs difference, but more than that, it took away my joy. I began to be fearful that I was on a slippery slope and couldn't stop making bad choices. I even avoided posting for a few days and for me, that is a sign of big trouble. For me, it means I am avoiding reality and not being accountable.
I'm not 100% back yet, but I did go to they gym yesterday. However, I was supposed to finish my workout last night and didn't. I did track my food for the first time in probably 2 weeks tho. I even admitted to the 4 oz of baked lays and included them. Amazingly, I didn't go over my limits. I am often afraid to see what damage I've done and as is true with many things, I've worried over nothing.
So, here's to letting go of my bad choices and moving on. I am very grateful to have SP and my friends here. I know it's what has helped me get back to making wise choices instead of giving up as I have so often in the past.