Mental and physical health

All my life I have let other people control my mental state and moods. I am not going to let it happen any more. About two months ago I went in to get help with my depression and basically found out I have be depressed for most of my life I'm learning to deal with that but it has been hard, I use to use the gym and working out as an escape from my depression but I stopped go to the gym about 10 years ago and ballooned to 240 pounds (I know that doesn't sound like a lot to some of you but I'm only 5'9"). I lost a stripe in the Air Force because of it. I have now lost all the weight but I am still not happy with my body. Lately every time I start lifting again I don't see results fast enough so I get depressed and stop working out which makes me more depressed it is a vicious cycle that I want to stop. Any way from now on I am not going to let work, friends or family control my moods. I am finally taking control of my life and going to get mentally and physically health for me. And find the body I always wanted I know it's in me some were.