Bad 2 days
Friday, October 05, 2007
I've had a bad last 2 days. I fell off the diet wagon, after working so hard for a week. I let my emotions carry me away. I let the stress get to me and I fed my depression with carbs and sugar and caffeine.
Why do some people struggle with their weight, while others seem to have the ability to eat every thing in site and never have to worry about gaining an ounce? I know the science behind it, I know the true explanation but what is the explanation that is going to make me feel better?
I have so much swimming around my head tonight. I keep thinking how unfair life is and how I can't get the things I want. Why I can't change the things about me that I hate. Why people have to be permanently scarred by mistakes they've made. I wonder why things can't be easier for me. Why can't something I want, like losing weight, happen to me when I try?
I know the standard answers to those questions. I know the encouraging pep talk that every one drills into you about just keep on keeping on. I want the answer that makes me slap my head and say now I get it, though.
Sometimes a person just gets tired of it.