Same old song and dance
Sunday, September 30, 2007
If you are looking for some positive comments and inspiration DON'T READ MY BLOG!!!! I am such an IDIOT!!!! I have been struggling all summer going up and down up and down. My lowest at one point was 207 and my highest was 218 during a bad gain. Now I'm at 216 after another bad gain. My uncle came to town from Florida and wanted pie- I used it as the perfect excuse to have a little fun. Then I thought maybe I was back on track but still wasn't exercising. Then I went to the fair for 3 days and totally binged. I had fried dough, french fries, sausage, fudge, caramel corn, cotton candy, caramel apple, snow cones and I'm sure there is more that I have forgotten. I feel like a stuffed pig.
I HATE the relationship I have with food. It has let me down my entire life. It gets me all excited and I just LOVE IT AND LOTS OF IT and then BANG, I have to step on the scale. The feeling I have after a binge is one I never want again. Why oh why can I not get a handle on this? I need to do some serious soul searching and figure out what will help me get back on track.
Sorry; but I warned you it was glum!