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A Realistic Look at my life since Spark People.

Thursday, September 27, 2007

I wonder how many "Starting Over" blog entries exist on spark people? I know this is not my first. Losing a large amount of weight, and then gaining a big portion of it back is a horribly embarrasing and humbling thing.

I can't speak for others, but I even though I knew that spark was a valuable tool, I didn't want to really use it until I was back to where I had been. I mean who wants to stand up and say "Hey, I lost 83 pounds, and then turned around and gained half of it back?"

But what's done is done, and I can't take back the past 6 months, and I can't keep trying to pretend that if I just ignore it, all this extra weight will go away. I have to face it, though I really don't want to.

One thing I am trying to do, is to see that this past year hasn't been a total loss. I still am down 40 pounds, and I have made exercise a part of my life. Though my eating has been absolutely atrocious, I have continued to walk on my treadmill for an hour every morning, monday through friday.

I also eat much healthier that I used to, adding fruits, vegetables, and whole grains to my diet. And even though binging was a serious part of my life over the past 6 months, I still as a whole ate less fast food, and less processed food then I did before spark. I also drink lots of water, something I rarely did in the past.

So I may have gained some weight back, and I may not have conquered my eating issues, but I think it's important for me to acknowledge that I HAVE made some progress.
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  • no profile photo CD128363
    I have also noticed that it is VERY common for people doing this to backslide. All of my Spark friends seem to have done it to some extent. This is not easy work, and I think that the re-gaining is just the most challenging part of it. Time to figure out how to get through this. When you gain some weight back it can seem humiliating, but almost everyone does it. My focus lately since I have been "starting over" is on the mental aspect of it. I literally have been reminding myself over and over that I am in control of what goes into my mouth, not any circumstance or person.
    Starting over is simply another phase of the work. You can do it! Just blogging about it is very helpful to me also, even if there is no progress on the scale.
    4777 days ago
  • MARIEL27
    I agree, you have made big progress and what's best... this time around you know exactly WHAT to do to get back to a healthy weight.
    You are on your way!

    Nothing to be embarrassed about... we all have taken a few steps back here and there. What's important, is moving FORWARD.

    I'm cheering for you!

    4778 days ago
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