A Realistic Look at my life since Spark People.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
I wonder how many "Starting Over" blog entries exist on spark people? I know this is not my first. Losing a large amount of weight, and then gaining a big portion of it back is a horribly embarrasing and humbling thing.
I can't speak for others, but I even though I knew that spark was a valuable tool, I didn't want to really use it until I was back to where I had been. I mean who wants to stand up and say "Hey, I lost 83 pounds, and then turned around and gained half of it back?"
But what's done is done, and I can't take back the past 6 months, and I can't keep trying to pretend that if I just ignore it, all this extra weight will go away. I have to face it, though I really don't want to.
One thing I am trying to do, is to see that this past year hasn't been a total loss. I still am down 40 pounds, and I have made exercise a part of my life. Though my eating has been absolutely atrocious, I have continued to walk on my treadmill for an hour every morning, monday through friday.
I also eat much healthier that I used to, adding fruits, vegetables, and whole grains to my diet. And even though binging was a serious part of my life over the past 6 months, I still as a whole ate less fast food, and less processed food then I did before spark. I also drink lots of water, something I rarely did in the past.
So I may have gained some weight back, and I may not have conquered my eating issues, but I think it's important for me to acknowledge that I HAVE made some progress.