Sunday, September 16, 2007
Well, I weigh in tomorrow. I hope I've gotten back under my Spark start weight. But if not, that's okay, too. I'll just keep doing what I'm doing.
I've found that weighing myself twice a week is helping. Once a week is far enough apart for me to kind of lose focus. So having a task to do twice a week helps. Also, by weighing on Thursday, if it's high, or whatever it is, it's like a weather advisory for going into the weekend. Because right now, it's lot less structured at home. The weekends can be treacherous (though more relaxed then when I have to go to work!). I just don't have the structure to my day that I have at work.
So I like the Thursday weigh-in as a counterpoint to Monday. And Monday gets me started for the week, and thinking about making better choices when I go back up to my desk. My guilty little pleasure is: I don't log in the second weight for the week if I don't like it! But only if it's been less than a week. Even if it's a gain, I am logging it at least once a week.
Also, a new development. I found that David will actually follow my lead when it comes to setting some limits on my eating behaviors. And others.
He used to press food on me when I was trying not to eat late, and used to give me a hard time about not trying something that he brought home. But I'm finding that as I consistently say, no thank you, and if I'm nice about it instead of getting mad that he's pressing food on me, he is actually respecting that. He still brings stuff home, but he tells me about it instead of putting it in my face, and he's bringing more bagels than doughnuts now. And it'll be more like 6 instead of 20.
Also, if I say that I'm not hungry and I'll just have something to drink, on a work day, he leaves it at that. So we are struggling less over food. Also, if I suggest a healthy alternative to a "bad" one, he'll go along with it in a heartbeat. We still eat later than I'd like to on his days off, but this week I offered to make dinner, and I made it earlier, and he was fine with that. So there is hope.
I think we both want to live a healthy life. We just need to learn to trust ourselves, trust each other, and stick out necks out a little bit to stand up for the life that we really want.