Update (RE: Deployment Depression)

Sunday, September 09, 2007

Thank you to everyone who replied. It's been so great to be able to come to SP and know that someone is here 24/7. I'm doing better since hubby's been able to get online. I'm not just hanging out in limbo anymore. I went on a huge shopping splurge in TX yesterday and online this morning to get stuff we've been needing and just haven't had the time/money to get until now. We're finally getting a kitchen table, I have at least one pair of jeans that fit (yay for Lane Bryant's new sizing system, I'm a size 8! lol), more clothes coming from Old Navy soon, 4 pairs of shoes that all fit well enough that they should help with back and foot pain while still being able to wear the shoes I want with different outfits; lamps, sheets that fit our new bed (we upgraded to a full mattress and box springs from a futon mattress on the floor a few months ago), a comforter that's not black (it's spring green, sky blue, and yellow) so I feel a little more like getting up in the morning, a second alarm clock in case I don't, a toaster oven on sale for 60 down from 130, a portable closet for all of my new clothes, space bags for the old ones and the ones he left here, a watch that has timers for marathon training and a pulse function, and other stuff I can't even remember right now. It's amazing how shopping can make you feel better, too bad we don't have the means for me to do it all of the time! I'm slowly but surely getting myself much, much more organized. Oh, I got 3 huge poster-sized frames so I can make my motivational collage (been putting it off until I had something to protect it from the kitties) and probably another of hubby and I, and another of my siblings, grandma, myself, friends, and my goddaughter. Getting myself together will take a while, but it will also help distract me and give me a goal to work toward (aside from the weight loss, of course).

I still want to see a psychiatrist because I realize that if I try to do everything on my own I'm going to blow up eventually, but maybe I can avoid drugs. I don't like taking things I don't need.

Again, thank you all so much for pointing out to me yet again that SP has saved my life once and can again, and again if I need it.

Edit: I'll be posting pics of my new stuff soon (mainly my shoes and jeans) so keep an eye out!
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    I see that you man just deployed.. Is he by chance with 15 trans?
    I was at their deployment ceremony to see off a good friend.
    Hang in there it does get easier as it goes. Mikey has been gone since April and it is hard at first (ok its HELL) but one day closer to him coming home with each one that passes..
    Congrats on ur loss so far.. I took about a month to deal with some issues and I am back hard at it on my journey!
    3928 days ago
  • LYBBE1631
    Hicklahoma!!! LOL - you crack me up girl! I'm lucky to live in a big city surrounded by lots of parks and conservation areas. Ask around -you've probably got some too.
    3929 days ago
  • LYBBE1631
    I can't even imagine what you're going through with your husband so far away. I have suffered from depression for years and the best advice I can give you is to not avoid the drugs. They aren't a crutch. They WILL help and so will talking to a therapist or a group. It isn't a sign of weakness, and if you're ready to be open to letting some of yourself out, you'll be well on the road to recovery. Don't wait until you're as old as I am to figure out that depression is not something your brought to yourself - it's real and it can be fixed. Take care of you kiddo! I'm in your corner cheering you on.
    3933 days ago
    Ooooh! Can't wait to see the pics of your purchases. :)

    I'm really glad there are folks on sparks who can be there for you and know what you're going through with the whole deployment thing. :)
    3935 days ago
    I am so glad that you are finding ways to cope! The sacrifices that families like yours make, to support our national way of life, are incredible. I hope you know how much we - I - appreciate all that you are doing!
    3935 days ago
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