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One of those days

Thursday, June 10, 2021

So, it has been a really long time since i blogged. I decided to start blogging again as i have a lot to say, and this has always been a safe enough place for me to say it. Everyone is very accepting here and has been supportive So the journey this time started about 10 months ago. I always kind of seem to start this on accident. Or not really on accident but it has never been started with a “I have to do something” moment. This time did, but it wasn’t motivated by weight at least not directly. I am coming out on here that I had a drinking problem. I have been going to treatment for almost a year now. Stopping drinking then kickstarted the weight loss this time. The decision to stop drinking and stop for good has helped me make better decisions all along the way. I have now lost over 100 pounds. I can walk as many as 7.5 miles at a time. I can also ride at least that same distance. It has allowed me to cut my diabetes medication dosage in half then in half again. My blood pressure is under control. I feel great and plan to start backpacking in the fall and possibly do some bike packing. Then today happened. As part of my treatment I attend a weekly group meeting that has been great and i have met some people that are remarkable in their stories. I developed a good working relationship with the counselor and she does a good job keeping me honest with myself and encouraging me and the others to grow. Then a month ago she announced that due to personal circumstances she needed to take the summer off. So we got a new counselor. And in one meeting things have changed drastically. I understand not everything can stay the same. I also understand that the meetings may not have been working for everyone. And so i can understand why it may have needed to change. Then I log in here. And get a notification that they are closing down the app. And again i understand why sometimes things need to change. I have done a lot of changing over the last year. And not everyone has liked the changes I have made. But these have been changes that have improved my life immensely. Stopping drinking has allowed me to then focus on and make better decisions both for my health and in other aspects. And now both things I have used over the last 10 months to improve my life are being taken away.
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    What you perhaps feel is these two changes are betrayals. But the outside changes that have occurred do not mean you need to change back to what you were. The alcohol is gone; you need never be an alcoholic again. The weight is gone; you need not regain it. As one person said, "I didn't lose the weight--I'm not looking to find it ever again." You have ten months of excellent habit change to look back on. Continue in your successful ways. One web site and one counselor do not make up your better self. They have helped, but you are the one who has done the work to be that stronger person.
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