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Changes and Struggles 2021

Tuesday, June 08, 2021

I've been going through the cycles of grief for some things related to my health.. and on the 12th year anniversary of the first Spark Convention, I found out today about SparkPeople closing on August 17.


I had just restarted using the nutrition tracker, trusting the SP formulas for ranges the most, and lost 17 lbs in the past couple of months. The success, safety and security of Spark brought me back.

I'm feeling a lot of feels about reading the news that SP is closing in August.... The world certainly has changed. I don't log into a laptop at home and the Spark app scroll didn't engage me as much as seeing everything full screen.

It was through these blogs that I journaled seriously for awhile, and made a conscious effort to begin the process of retraining my brain and how I thought about my life and events that was a major part of my previous weight loss success.

A couple of years ago I regained half of the weight I lost, and then maintained my new weight while exploring intuitive eating. I do believe in Health at Every Size and the importance of fitness and strength no matter what your shape or size. Sometimes being in a weight loss environment is disheartening, with so many people focused on labeling things as good or bad.

That's one of the reasons I loved the Done Girl team so much, because the refocus on what we can and will do was refreshing in diet culture.

My TMI if you made it this far...

-I'm awaiting results and facing possible Cancer. I just had a procedure and expect a bigger surgery in the next few months.

-I'm filing for bankruptcy because a zombie debt default judgement has come up with a wage garnishment at my work (which I believe threatens my job).

-I just got a raise yesterday, (but still receive wages that are not in line with the cost of living in San Diego) and need to seriously re-evaluate my work/life balance, and the true meaning of self-care.

Life moves on. It keeps going whether you are in or out of touch with friends, in good health and in poor health, in happiness and sadness.

The best we can do is live it.
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    Sending you huge hugs and so much love, Joce! emoticon You have always inspired people with your journey, and I have no doubt that whatever life throws at you, you'll overcome it, too! emoticon It's odd to think that SP won't be here to fall back on, but I'll be hoping that you will have loving support around you as you go through these challenge. Will miss seeing your sweet face, your graciousness and kindness to others, and your beautiful, spunky nature! Please take care of yourself, and know that you will be so, so missed in this community! emoticon Done Girls Forever! emoticon
    39 days ago
  • ALOFA0509
    emoticon emoticon I will miss you Spark Sister emoticon
    50 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    I'm always happy to see you post, but sorry to see you might have Cancer. I'm 71 and a couple of months ago i had bleeding and had to go to the ER for a Cat Scan. I had a total hysterectomy in '97, but he told me they could have left some cervical cells. They didn't find cancer so I saw the Ob/Gyn and he said when we get old the tissue gets thin, and it can bleed, so he gave me estrogen and that has helped.
    Vaginal estrogen doesn't circulate threw the body, but just improves the tissue.
    I take progesterone as my regular doctor has me on it as he says it helps prevent osteoporosis and improves sleep. He has me on Metformin and Nature Thyroid and a weekly shot of Bydureon. It has helped me keep off the 50# I lost 4 yrs ago. Metformin has been shown to help prevent Cancer, since Cancer cells lover SUGAR. My blood sugar is now 84, so I no longer have cravings.
    51 days ago
  • no profile photo CD3494791
    Sorry to hear about all your facing. Prayers to you and all goes well. Take care! emoticon emoticon
    52 days ago
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  • no profile photo NYLAURA1
    I've been sad about SP closing because of the loss of Community also.
    I wish you the best in surmounting the obstacles you are encountering
    53 days ago
    I'm going to miss you so much. emoticon
    53 days ago
    I'm sorry to hear about your health and finance issues. My prayers are for you. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    54 days ago
    Diet culture is really harmful to a lot of people. I just recall seeing someone on FB justifying their photograph of an ice cream cone by saying she was going to burn off the calories later by doing some physical activity. I thought to myself that that is exactly what we should not perpetuate - the justification of what we are eating.

    I started following The Nutrition Tea on Instagram and I love what she has to say about diet culture.

    I am really glad to stop counting, tracking, watching the scale, etc., so I may be a rarity, but I'm not that sad that Spark is not going to be available to this Canadian anymore. I'm going to get so much time back by not being here, but I want to be here until the end and it's not for the tracking, it's for the great friends I've made here.

    I'm sorry to hear about your financial issues and the possible cancer. As many people have already pointed out, cancer can be beaten, and in your case, it's only a possibility, not a certainty. I too had scary cancer moment. I had pre-cancerous cells on my cervix in the mid-90's and it was taken care of with laser surgery and I have had clear PAP tests since then.

    Sending you much love and light!
    54 days ago
    I am so sorry to hear about your situation. I've had cancer and know it can be beaten.

    I am scurrying around looking for a new site to replace Spark but haven't found the diet, exercise, member lead teams, and blogs. If you find something please let me know.

    You really motivated me in Done Girl.

    I wish you all the best. emoticon
    54 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/8/2021 11:04:47 PM
    Iā€™m so sorry your going through such an awful time Wolf. Praying emoticon for the procedure your facing emoticon
    54 days ago
  • F8CONE8
    With so much happening in your life it is sad that you are facing another change like losing Spark. You are correct to say we move on. We will figure this out. Meantime I will be thinking of you and hoping for good news from the doctor. emoticon
    54 days ago
    Hi Wolf,

    I'm so sorry about your news. But, I'm here to tell you I survived stage 4 breast cancer 28 years ago. I was in LA, CA, and had a good Oncologist, Dr. John S. Link, M. D. Medical Director (then) at Memorial Breast Center in Long Beach, CA. Dr. Carry Kaufman did my lumpectomy I refused the total mastectomy.

    So, keep your head up high and do your research for the best doctors you can find and you too will come through this. My thoughts are with you and if you want to talk I will give you my number.

    (((Hugs))) Bobbie
    54 days ago
    Sending positivr thoughts your way.
    54 days ago
    Sending you prayers on your next surgery šŸ™
    54 days ago
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