I've been going through the cycles of grief for some things related to my health.. and on the 12th year anniversary of the first Spark Convention, I found out today about SparkPeople closing on August 17.
I had just restarted using the nutrition tracker, trusting the SP formulas for ranges the most, and lost 17 lbs in the past couple of months. The success, safety and security of Spark brought me back.
I'm feeling a lot of feels about reading the news that SP is closing in August.... The world certainly has changed. I don't log into a laptop at home and the Spark app scroll didn't engage me as much as seeing everything full screen.
It was through these blogs that I journaled seriously for awhile, and made a conscious effort to begin the process of retraining my brain and how I thought about my life and events that was a major part of my previous weight loss success.
A couple of years ago I regained half of the weight I lost, and then maintained my new weight while exploring intuitive eating. I do believe in Health at Every Size and the importance of fitness and strength no matter what your shape or size. Sometimes being in a weight loss environment is disheartening, with so many people focused on labeling things as good or bad.
That's one of the reasons I loved the Done Girl team so much, because the refocus on what we can and will do was refreshing in diet culture.
My TMI if you made it this far...
-I'm awaiting results and facing possible Cancer. I just had a procedure and expect a bigger surgery in the next few months.
-I'm filing for bankruptcy because a zombie debt default judgement has come up with a wage garnishment at my work (which I believe threatens my job).
-I just got a raise yesterday, (but still receive wages that are not in line with the cost of living in San Diego) and need to seriously re-evaluate my work/life balance, and the true meaning of self-care.
Life moves on. It keeps going whether you are in or out of touch with friends, in good health and in poor health, in happiness and sadness.
The best we can do is live it.