Again and A Gain
Wednesday, March 03, 2021
How many "comebacks" have I made? I don't know. But since I'd lost 70lbs in 2011, I've been away and back several times over. Several? maybe 10. And within each period of activity here on SP. I have mini-periods of wandering. I will not call them "Failures" because i have not quit the fight altogether....just really have kind of lost focus and wavered in commitment. I'll gain a pound or five...and come back, knowing that this place is perhaps my only hope.
Right now I'm recently "back" and am kind of wondering what to do with myself calorically. I've talked about this before....and that is my natural inclination to eat too little. Often the end of the day will arrive and I will have eaten only about 850 calories. The problem comes, usually, when I"m at my dad's house and eating three largish meals a day. And ice cream sandwiches in between. I enjoy his food. He is becoming a very good cook since my mom has died three years ago. Unfortunately his belly is growing every time I see him. He constantly mocks my appetite--apparently unaware that I"m doing a lot better than he is in the belly department.
Anyway. I have noticed that after a few days of eating 800ish calories, my weight loss slows or stops altogether. And when I eat more..like 1300 calories, it ipicks up again. SO Beth (my weight/heatlh coach) and I have decided that variable calorie goals are the best way to go . For a few days I"ll eat at the lower end and a few days at the higher end of the calorie counts. This keeps my metabolism running to catch up with me.
I'm not sure what to do about the visits to dad's. I really do need periodic breaks from the tension and hostility in my home, so I do not want to quit going. I spend 5-7 days a month at dad's. I just need to somehow get a handle on the overeating. And for some reason, his mockery simply adds fuel to my appetite rather than humiliating it into submission.
Time to go for my AM cup of tea. I've been returning to my tea habit after a while of not drinking it much. I do think it helps with weight loss. I think I'll have Oolong this morning.
Have a happy, successful day, Sparkers!