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To everything there is a season... weep, mourn, laugh and dance

Monday, March 01, 2021

Eccl. 3 ...To everything there is a season and after a month and a half of grief we are ready to learn to laugh and dance again - read that chapter in Bible for your lifting up.

Jan 8th they could not hear a heart beat and on Jan 21 my daughter delivered a tiny, perfectly formed baby - too tiny to tell if boy or girl so she will always be called Vanilla Bean because that is the size she was when they first knew they were pregnant. The greatest grief I have ever known is to hold my daughter as she grieves this loss - and then to finally have our ground thaw enough that on Saturday we laid to rest this tiny baby in the tiny coffin her daddy lovingly built and mama hand sewed a minature soft blanket to cushion. Surrounded by roses and tears, they gently filled the tiny grave and the earlhly work was done. A dear friend and pastor shared a precious devotional and prayer and then we went in to share in a meal ndfellowship and eginning of "new normal " filled with the love and life in their beautiful almost 14 monh old daughter. They stayed the night and attended church before heading back to their home 2.5 hours away.
Today,I begin to think towards taking care of my health again - comfort eating is done and planning routines back into daily life is at the forefront - breakfast was measured, enjoyed and recorded on to the first day of the rest of my life. .
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  • BBLESSED32
    emoticon emoticon Linda - Your Vanilla Bean sits on the lap of Jesus and awaits your arrival, when it is your time. There will still be that hole I know, but this child is not lost, just waiting for her parents and grandparents to make it home. Praying for you to be comforted as you imagine the "what-if's" but you can be assured with complete confidence the "sure thing" that Vanilla Bean is alive and well, just across the river. May you hope in that day when you will meet face to face. Prayers for your comfort as I have one waiting for me as well, one that I did not set eyes upon, but I heard her heartbeat and had to go through the process and had to be counseled for it. We still mention our daughter from time to time, but God has her so we are comforted. Hugs to you.
    38 days ago
  • HEALTHYBARB1
    Hugs Linda...Praying for comfort for you & your family. Barb
    39 days ago
  • TERMITEMOM
    Linda, I am so sorry
    42 days ago
  • ALEXSGIRL1
    So very sorry for your families loss hugs
    42 days ago
  • TZAPP22
    Sending love and prayers to you all emoticon
    42 days ago
  • GRAMMYD11
    Sending love, hugs and prayers
    42 days ago
  • TEDDYBEARDONNA
    Hugs!
    42 days ago
  • TWEETY5301
    So sorry for your loss. I truly understand how all things get set aside when a loved one is in need. Bless you and your family. You can now return to caring for yourself and setting your goals. Best of luck.
    42 days ago
  • MYDIETINFO1
    Such heart break! Hugs and prayers as you all adjust to a new normal. We went through same in October with our daughter.
    42 days ago
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