Sunday, February 28, 2021
I am basically starting over. In 2017, I had sort of a painful break up and gained weight, then got injured. I spent a year on disability from September of 2017-2018. I tried to fight it, but a month on muscle relaxants and a steroid shot in my neck in combination with limited movement and stress did not help my weight loss efforts. In 2018, I had spine surgery on my neck, lost my dog to leukemia, lost my ex husband and children's father to cancer, had my pay cut, and spent most of my year trying to pick up the pieces. In 2019, I spent the first part of the year dealing with depression, while my son randomly cried in his room, my daughter missed a ton of school because of migraines, while I was going to physical therapy, starting grad school, and fumbling around to get my ex's small estate stuff in order. No weight loss happened there. Towards the end of 2019 I made the decision to move across the country from California to Maine. We just needed a fresh start. Right before moving, I met someone and he decided to move with me. Since then I had two epidurals and gained weight after both of those. I also finished graduate school and got engage. Obviously COVID hit. My fiancé is an excellent cook, but it's often not healthy and we have done our fair share of drinking.... I got the scale this morning, gasps, and decided this is the day that I start over.
Here is my issues, the injury left me with some physical issues. I can't run. I have shoulder and neck issues, so it's going to have to be a different strategy than I used to lose 190 pounds previously (I have less than that to lose, so it's not a complete start over). I am menopausal age and hormones might not be my friend currently. I think it's really go to fall on mainly diet to start. If I did it once, I don't see why I can't make it happen again, starting with the choices I make today.