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You Are Deserving

Tuesday, February 23, 2021

I ask you, have you ever felt like you just can't catch a break, no matter how hard you try? Like your the hind end of a horse's ass instead of the head? Like you're always beneath instead of on top? too.

I'm telling you, we have to keep going.

Have that crying jag, because our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while so that we can see life with a clearer view again, then pick yourself up, dust yourself off and keep on fighting. If you give up, you give up on yourself. We HAVE to hang on to our visions of what we want our lives to look like when we reach the other side of this. It's what keeps pulling us forward. Never forget you are the power. Keep fighting. Because once the storm is over, we won't remember how we actually made it through, how we managed to survive.
We won't even be sure the storm is really over but, one thing is certain. When we do come out of this storm, we won't be the same persons that went in. That's what this storm is all about.

After everything we've ever been through and are going through, we are deserving. I deserve to be free. You deserve to be free. Every last one of us deserves to be loved, appreciated and understood the sacrifices we've been through and the scars we left behind. To know what it's like to put other people before anyone is like.
After everything we've been through, all the pain and accusations, the lies and mind games, the sleepless nights that have led us to this state of anxiety and depression
After everything we've been through we deserve to let go, move on, start over. We deserve to be our own Queen, You men deserve to be your own kings. We deserve to survive, to keep going and set the heaviness aside. We deserve people. Ones with the deepest of hearts and expanding souls. We deserve so much more than we've been given. We deserve to love ourselves, to set our hearts on fire, to breathe at our own pace. To let go if and when we want to, be wild, crazy and free.
To dance wildly in the rain to the beat of our own hearts.
Even though our eyes are filled with oceans of pain we're strong, we're beautiful, dangerously smart and our souls have a compass that points the way home.
We have a radiant light that today's dark world needs.
After everything, we too deserved to be loved and cherished by those who deserve our love.
We are one of a kind. We are more than enough
After everything we've been through we owe it to ourselves.

So be kinder to yourself, softer, lighter. The world is hard. People are hard. And, our thoughts are harder. But there is no need to be so tough on ourselves, criticize or diminish who we are. We are beings full of love, light and hope. We still believe ourselves even when in doubt. But, we never forget our scars when we are in a difficult situation. We know ourselves and what we want when an opportunity presents itself. So be kind gentle and understanding.
There is no need to be submissive, defeated, to be slain by our own minds. Be patient with yourself and your feelings. Remember we are love, and when we come to the end of all doubts and the overthinking is under control, that is when we will begin again.
Take this as a sign.

I’ve actually lived an unconventional life. Up until now, it’s been a rich ride already and I’ve been able to do and see some incredible things. But in the process, I’ve made some choices and allowed people into my life that have resulted in huge painful consequences. And my present life, the one I’m living now has a lot of uncertainty, adversity, turbulence and disorder. Recently, however, I became aware of a thread of doubt that’s been playing, beneath my surface, for decades. It was a troubled, guilty feeling that no matter how good I was I didn’t really deserve the success I had aspired to. I feared things had happened to me and I had made consequential choices that might not be surmountable. I’d screwed up once too many times. Maybe I hadn’t sacrificed enough or the right things to be deserving of.

I’ve both had and lost accomplishments, along with deserved recognition. None of it, neither the having nor the losing, actually touched my subconscious sense of not deserving. I’ve learned that no one outside myself can convince me that I am worthy. That’s an inside job.

Being deserving isn’t about doing; it’s about being. Overcoming a sense of unworthiness doesn’t involve success. It involves remembering who I really am beyond the human thicknesses of this body, beliefs, regrets and comparisons.

There is a deeper truth that each of us is far more, and far more beautiful and magnificent, than what shows up in these human forms. Our human aspects, like lightning, are illusions. What we see with the naked eye is far different than what is actually taking place. It looks like the bolt of lightning comes from the sky and splits the tree. The truth is, there is an invisible bolt of energy that reaches from the sky to touch the tree and when it does a tremendous flow of Earth’s energy courses up through the tree and the tiny bolt pulses and crackles across an illumined sky.

We have the courage to take on this challenging human experience as part, and only part, of our evolution as spiritual beings. At the core, we are so much more and absolutely deserving of all the goodness that lays before us. The universe knows that even if we don’t yet.

It’s not about Being Worthy; it’s about remembering we are Worthy just by Being. Open up to remembering You.

Don't be afraid of setting boundaries. There is no perfect time for setting boundaries. You most certainly can not wait on others to make decisions that support your life. You are the one in complete control. Decide now that you will hold yourself accountable for what you allow. It's time to set your own standards and guidelines. You and you alone are in charge of your destiny.

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    OH my, yes, we are worthy. God, for sure, sees each and every one of us as worthy. It is up to us to negate those negative thoughts that ross our minds. We have that power. He gave it to us!

    8 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    Gratitude changes everything.
    8 days ago
    I felt this.. "It’s not about Being Worthy; it’s about remembering we are Worthy just by Being." Thank you for those words. I needed to hear just that today. emoticon
    8 days ago
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