Pride versus Compulsion. Procrastinator needs to schedule.
Wednesday, February 17, 2021
I am one who can get absorbed into a moment, an activity, or a funky mood. One might think that is intentional focus, but when I reflect upon some of those times I can identify escapism maybe? And other times I can remember putting off priority activities -- knowingly keep engaging in something fun and telling myself, oh I can do that other later. I can realize that the chances are slim that I will start that important chore in the evening (when spouse is home or when it gets dark outside), but continue on the more pleasant path.
Of late , I observe that I may engage in housecleaning to the extent that part of me feels "busy" or "productive" and realize later that set goal has been reached ( and the house will get messy again) A bit of a paradox (there is a better word, but I will have to search for it) is that my house never seems company-ready. Not that we are having company visit or even family visit!
This morning I got to thinking about a type of pride that may stir someone to keep their house neat and organized, encourage someone to keep their appearance up, and motivate one to achieve goals (rather than just keep busy). Is there value in having an attractive living environment? A tidy work environment? A professional appearance? I believe that I could argue that there is value in these characteristics... if one is not using those goals to "hide from" or put off less palatable activities/commitments.
I will put a bookmark in my thinking right here. I do want to return to these question. I know I struggle with procrastination and I do not want to waste time with negative anticipation and/or regret.
So here is to a positive day on all of our health journeys.