On the Brink
Wednesday, February 17, 2021
Well we are on the brink of this winter storm that will be arriving tonight. Much of the country is in frigid darkness without power and probably locked in despair as well. I pray that I'm not in the same spot in the next few days. I am still not over the trauma of the blizzard/ice storm that we had three years ago that knocked down acres and acres of trees and plunged us into a dark freeze that left us for 9 days without power and temps were in the 30's. This has the potential to be even worse which is really hard to imagine. I am praying fervently not to have to go through that again.
in other news....
I"ve been at my dad 's for the past month following a 2 1l2 week hospital stay. I was a mess for the first week i was home. I''m feeling better now but don't know how it will go to be home again with a hostile husband who, by his own admission, wishes me dead. Yeah. Nice.
My weight has climbed to a height it has not seen for many months. 190. I had been, just a couple of weeks ago, down to 177. HOw did this happen? I didn't sign in to Spark for pretty much that whole time and I didn't track. My appetite has been ravenous. I am blaming one of my new blood pressure medications for this. When I started it is when my appetite soared. Consequence? I don't think so.
So i need a plan. Yesterday I talked to Beth (INDYGIRL) but we didn't discuss weight or eating. We have each been going through stuff that has usurped our focus and strength...although she has been good and has continued to lose weight.
I think i need to approach SP in the same way I did when a newbie at it. Break it down into simple steps and cling to it desperately as though my life depended on it. That means coming up with 5 Fast Break plans of action, TRacking. Menu planning. That and lean hard on my supports here.
Well breakfast is ready.