DUMPING THE DUMPS!
Thursday, February 04, 2021
In a hurry to get some office work done, and I typically don't write a blog when I'm hurrying. HOWEVER, I'm doing so today. I have, indeed, kind of been in the dumps. Covid has gone rampant in our area, but specifically in the villages we minister to. So, by governor's order, first we shut down Sundays, but when it got so bad, we had to shut everything down. Now, we've even had the fIrst Covid death in the village where we actually live.
When everything gets shut down, I'm given lots of extra time to tackle lots of "to-do's" that never get done. But DH isn't like that; he's COMPLETELY social, so he tends to mope around and becomes super high maintenance--which, of course, totally messes with my inner drive to tackle all my pending to-do's! YIKES! Not a particularly good combination. And when I get frustrated, or discouraged, or struggle with just about any negative emotion, it's hard not to eat things I shouldn't!!
So DH has been bringing sweets home every time he stops at a store . . . and delilberately offers them to me at my weakest time in the evening. Day before yesterday he even bought something specifically for me! Whaaaaat???!?!? Yes, I'm aggravated. Don't want to pick a fight, but he knows I'm doing this challenge. (I think he secretly gets aggravated at the time it takes.)
All that is on top of the general sadness from losing friends to Covid, seeing others struggle, and just generally tired of the whole thing like everyone else. I haven't even had the gumption to get through entire video workouts. I know that getting outside helps my generally sense of well-being, so today I just MADE myself take the dog walking. Oh, my goodness! I thought she was going to wriggle out of her skin. We have a large area for her to run and play in, but how she loves taking to the mountains for a walk! (What an amazing dog. As MUCH as she WANTS to do that, she never goes unless I take her. SHE STAYS HOME!) Walking doesn't exercise as many areas as most of my workouts, but if I'm not getting through them, they aren't doing me any good anyway. So for a while, I'm just going to go walking. It keeps me moving, and there's one FINE thing about walking. If I just don't feel like it, I at LEAST have to walk the rest of the way home. I can't just stop out there on the side of the mountain. Not only that, it DOES make me feel better. Truth is, I've never once felt like I just wanted to stop (which frequently happens with video workouts, because I become easily bored with them).
On top of that, I still have my prednisone face/neck. When I look in the mirror, I see the face I had when I was 40 lbs heavier. AND, typical of having been on prednisone, weight is harder to take off and easier to gain. (At least I've been completely off for a couple of weeks now--hate waiting for things to get back to normal--usually a 2 month process.) AND . . . due to the re-introduction of sugar, I have this resulting belly. It's hard not to get down on myself.
BUT today I am celebrating that my "skinny-sassy pants" (so-named from a previous challenge when I got into them) were falling off my butt during my walk! Yes, I almost had to stop wearing them several challenges ago and "re-filled" them a while back, but here is the thing: THEY WERE FALLING OFF OF ME TODAY! AND, usually when I've not walked for a while (last time was in good old FLAT TEXAS), those inclines usually kick me butt. NOT TODAY! With all the false "fat girl" signals I'm getting from the prednisone side effects AND the scale conniving with them, there are positives. Am choosing to focus on those today.
I've made up my mind and have taken important steps to DUMP THE DUMPS!!!