Mindfulness of "the rut"
Thursday, January 28, 2021
Ever scroll through inspirational quotes on social media and they just hit the nail on the head? It happens to me all the time. This past year has been one of a lot of introspection and building up that self-care muscle...and today is no different. Full moon & PMS were both in my zone this week and I went into it with eyes open wide. On a scale of 1 to 10 self-care awareness, we are at a 9....which is why I am here. There is still the undercurrent of anxiety that still sticks around no matter how hard I try to shake it.
All of the pics above represent a lot of "Heeeeeeeyyyy that's me! I do that!" Insomnia, avoidance tactics, procrastinating sleep, slapping on a smile and saying "yes" to projects that have NOTHING to do with me, waiting for emails and getting extremely annoyed (aka feeling ignored, not important, unworthy, etc pick a derogatory adjective, I've thought it), overthinking, yadda yadda yadda
My biggest power over these feeling is being mindful that it's going on. Literally, it is a superpower at this point. I hunker down...reset, recharge, refocus. I meditate & breathe through the tightness in my chest, my increased heart rate. I accept that if I have to chunk it out and do a few things at a time, that is what I have to do. I accept that I have to give myself that grace.
I also won't apologize for it (...not like anyone is asking or inquiring or assigning blame LOL but in my mind, someone is talking about me, somewhere, judging... perfectionism & people pleasing at the helm on that particular worry.)
It's also time to do more of what makes me happy!