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So...2021

Friday, January 15, 2021

So...2021...I’ve deleted several blogs since your start...

This Friday morning, I woke up from weird dreams and had to get up and out of bed. On average I wake up around 4:30am nowadays. I wish it were later, truly. I look at the bright side and enjoy the quiet time for reflection and meditation, time to catch up in the news before it gets repeated, go through my daily checklist to make sure I don’t forget anything important...like health screenings, medications, vitamins, food tracking etc. etc.

The news is littered with updates of the political and coronavirus realms. It’s been like that since last year. None of it is very uplifting...in fact people I know cry everyday. I just cannot do that. I shake my head, pray that in the end good will win over evil, and move on. We are in a pandemic....I do my part by staying home, masking up, and taking care of this little piece of the world and those who inhabit it. Granular? Most definitely. Basic? You betcha. It’s how I survive through stressful situations.

This past Wednesday, I received word from the International Business Aviation Council that my company’s audit process was concluded and we were granted registration to be one of their operators. I have been working on this audit since last August. It’s what I do. It’s been a topic of many a blog dealing with stress. You’d think I’d be happy and smiling and jumping for joy! Instead, I read the email a few times...and wanted to cry. In fact, I did. There was no relief of it being over. This registration holds us to a higher standard. I have to do this audit again next year. I have to prepare now so next year we are ready. The job is not over by any means....especially with changes going on right now...changes that are good, that help with the higher standard. It’s my job to make sure everything is accounted for. No pressure.

The other audit (yes, there were 2) is not done yet either. I received word last Friday that we were all good for renewal pending an on-site visit...in the next few weeks. It’s been a week and I have yet to receive word of that visit. The unknown is grating on me.

In the meantime, I have seen the post holiday weight gain of 5 pounds. Not really happy about it. Lots of carbs, not enough plants. I know what to do, I just don’t have the willpower. I admit it. Being honest is half the battle right? The first step in turning the ship back on course.

Movement is at an all time low, thanks to winter and audit workload. I noticed that I barely moved one day because I was doing data entry all day. Again, I know what to do, I just don’t have the oomph right now.

I sound just like my hubby! The one constant I know about me is that this too shall pass.

Writing it out helps me move on. It truly does.

And with that, it’s time to move on! The day awaits!

Thanks for reading! And happy new year!!
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  • POLSKARENIA
    You’ll do this because you’ve stopped yourself in your tracks at 5 pounds. Let go!
    39 days ago
  • MJZHERE
    "This too shall pass." A close friend, age 86, who has seen so much in her lifetime, has often said to me, "Storms come but they always go..." Then she will ask me is that true or not. It is. We can be kind to ourselves about the turmoil they bring, how hard they are (once had a roof blown off my house!), and remember, we will get thru them.
    43 days ago
  • DALID414
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    46 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    LOTS of pressure and you seem to have an idea of what to anticipate and know what you need to do for you, too. Now, good luck getting down to the nitty-gritty of plowing through the challenges.

    HUGS and much peace to you.


    46 days ago
  • BROOKLYN_BORN
    Yes, being honest is half the battle. Smart to turn it around at 5 pounds.
    Why wait for double digits.

    Good luck and Hang in there
    46 days ago
  • HARROWJET
    Happy new year!!
    46 days ago
  • JCMSMILE
    Happy new year to you! ! I know you have a lot to do, but please know that you are strong enough and smart enough to get it all done. ..I do hope you have some helpers emoticon
    46 days ago
  • OHMEMEME
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    Good morning, good morning to the fact that God has given us another day, the possibilities of a new day.
    I send prayers and well wishes your way.

    All of this takes great mental energy. We have to figure out where our efforts are needed in this moment, this day. You have learned much in your meditation practice that will help you through all of this.

    Ugh! To each extra pound...many of us have those too. I’m trying to realize that they are evidence of my stressors and my celebrations. Done. Back to eating for nutrition first, and mindfully finding comfort in doing so. My exercise is good for my mind as well as my body, so I continue. Weight loss is my ultimate goal, perhaps, but the “why” is in the forefront, my well-being.

    Sending prayers, support, happy thoughts, and good vibes your way my Spark friend!
    46 days ago
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