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The last Monday of 2020

Monday, December 28, 2020

Can you believe it?!? It's a little surreal.

The last week of 2020...only a few days left of the most crazy year of our lives!! So many lives changed forever...from something unseen.


It was a year of a lot of reflection and soul searching, that is for sure. I'm always one for reflecting to see the good in any situation...just call me Pollyanna...and I've blogged and deleted a ton of times out of respect for those that cannot see it through my lens. I empathize with the heartache and worry, the loneliness, the anxiety, the loss, the fatigue of it all...I see it in close friends and relatives...and I've been there too. Overall, I'm grateful and thankful, and I count my blessings every single day. I also pray that others have the strength to stay strong and endure.

Today happens to be a high anxiety day: heart rate is elevated, upper chest breathing, cannot focus for $hit. I've meditated 90 minutes today so far, just trying to calm my system down. The hours are going by quickly enough and my work is being chipped away with one small task at a time. There is no multitasking going on today.

It's odd when these days happen. PMS, full moon, stress - I'm not surprised at my countenance today. I'm glad I wasn't this way when Xmas eve and day rolled around! It was honestly one of the more pleasant seasons, even with the mask on! Last year I was so sick I completely missed Christmas this was a year to be cherished!

My gut is trying to tell me something too. I just have to figure it out what it is all about. LOL love it when my intuition is fuzzy. This too shall pass (like it usually does after a blog LOL - coincidence? I think not)

Any-who....all that goes on par with 2020, now doesn't it?!?

Try and enjoy the last few days of this year my fellow Sparkers!!

...and 2020, sorry, but we won't miss you - don't let the door hit you on the way out! emoticon
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    Great blog!
    53 days ago
    I'm with you! Great blog! Despite many days of spinning out emotionally, Loved your Pollyanna reference!


    I try to stay positive in my down moments, thinking about times in history that were worse than now, thankful for what I do have, and try to not dwell on what has been lost.

    I hope writing this blog helped you. It reminded me to stay strong and stay positive!

    59 days ago
    Ah it’s a full moon - that explains me then 👍🏼
    59 days ago
  • DALID414
    In true 2020 fashion, I forgot about the 8am virtual yoga class I was to attend. Last one of the year... and I missed it...
    59 days ago
    Hi there!
    I hear you! Feeling much of the crazy as 2020 has been I am very fortunate and grateful. Learned a lot about a lot of “stuff” about the virus, the world, myself.
    Time! Time! Time! Some days, plenty, too much, and others just not enough.
    I am fortunate to be able able to view things through a lens similar to yours. I do recognize that’s not realistic for many, and that in itself keeps me grateful.
    I am well fed, well clothed, financially secure and safe. I have supportive family members and friends. Though we often disagree, especially about COVID, we are there for each other.
    Also have this great Spark community for support on things that others in my real world may not understand. No one in my inner circle talks about meditation as a way to peace of mind so having Spark friends like you is supportive. I had to make myself take a 20 min time out with a guided meditation today to slow my brain and the heaviness I felt in my chest. It was not magic but certainly helpful. Then I checked in here and found the likeness we share. Supportive.
    Onward ho!
    Keep sparking!

    You’ve got me curious about intuitions...

    59 days ago
    Do let the door hit you on your way out, deserve it emoticon

    I hope you figure out what your gut is trying to tell you emoticon
    60 days ago
    OH man, definitely will not miss 2020 and if the door wants to hit it on the way out so be it!

    Hope the meditation helps. Been doing that, too.

    60 days ago
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