The last Monday of 2020

Can you believe it?!? It's a little surreal.

The last week of 2020...only a few days left of the most crazy year of our lives!! So many lives changed forever...from something unseen.

Wow.

It was a year of a lot of reflection and soul searching, that is for sure. I'm always one for reflecting to see the good in any situation...just call me Pollyanna...and I've blogged and deleted a ton of times out of respect for those that cannot see it through my lens. I empathize with the heartache and worry, the loneliness, the anxiety, the loss, the fatigue of it all...I see it in close friends and relatives...and I've been there too. Overall, I'm grateful and thankful, and I count my blessings every single day. I also pray that others have the strength to stay strong and endure.

Today happens to be a high anxiety day: heart rate is elevated, upper chest breathing, cannot focus for $hit. I've meditated 90 minutes today so far, just trying to calm my system down. The hours are going by quickly enough and my work is being chipped away with one small task at a time. There is no multitasking going on today.

It's odd when these days happen. PMS, full moon, stress - I'm not surprised at my countenance today. I'm glad I wasn't this way when Xmas eve and day rolled around! It was honestly one of the more pleasant seasons, even with the mask on! Last year I was so sick I completely missed Christmas Day...so this was a year to be cherished!

My gut is trying to tell me something too. I just have to figure it out what it is all about. LOL love it when my intuition is fuzzy. This too shall pass (like it usually does after a blog LOL - coincidence? I think not)

Any-who....all that goes on par with 2020, now doesn't it?!?

Try and enjoy the last few days of this year my fellow Sparkers!!

...and 2020, sorry, but we won't miss you - don't let the door hit you on the way out!