observations

**Disclaimer, this blog is not looking for sympathy. I am just noting some observations and real life experiences.

Things I am noticing on this journey. Those around me aren’t as supportive as I would like about my new way of eating. I started this journey on June 15th. I jumped in the deep end and haven’t looked back. My family is very aware of my restrictions. I have eaten nearly the same combo each time I eat. A large salad, deviled eggs, veggies/dip and protein.

We invited my parents over for dinner on Sunday and my mom asked what she could bring. I said bring whatever you would like. She said I want to bring something you can eat. I said we aren’t eating carbs or sugar. She sighed. “That really limits what I can bring.” Now this isn’t the first time they have been over for dinner in the last 6 months. We have had this conversation nearly every time they come over. It’s depressing. Several months ago she brought 5 baked potatoes over. That is certainly NOT keto. LOL

It took my parents until after I had lost 60 lbs to even say anything to me about my progress. It’s like my weight or the fact I am losing is the elephant in the room. Everyone sees it, no one says anything. Over Thanksgiving, my mom said something about how much weight I had lost. I said about 75 lbs. She said are you planning to keep it off? I said that is always the plan mom. I feel like my bestie, my husband and spark friends are the only real support system I have on this journey. I am so thankful I have you all.

I have always been the biggest in my class, the biggest in the room, the biggest friend. I have just become accustomed to being the biggest everywhere I go. I have heard comments when I have been out, horribly painful comments that I chose to ignore. Comments that I know had eaten away my self-confidence. I just got to the point I didn’t care about my weight. I have always taken great pride in my appearance, except for my weight. I have a husband who is supportive and loves me no matter what my weight is. The final straw was this summer when we took a vacation to the beach. My bestie met us and we took a pic together and I WAS HORRIFIED. Enough was enough. So glad I found ELAB/IF. It has CHANGED my life.

My husband showed me pics over the weekend from over the summer and at the start of my journey. I was shocked. Absolutely shocked at how truly big I was. I am making incredible progress.
My sister took a pic of me on my birthday which was Oct 11th and I didn’t recognize myself. I actually cried. I look like a normal person. Someone who still has weight to loose, but not a morbidly obese person who is hiding under all that weight, acting like everything is okay.

Do I feel better losing almost 80 pounds? My self confidence is at an all time high but physically I don’t feel any different. I have always been active. I have a 10 year old. We are on the go most nights and all weekends. I have never let my weight stop me from doing and going places and I am not about to start now.

Watch me soar!!