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Monday, December 14, 2020

**Disclaimer, this blog is not looking for sympathy. I am just noting some observations and real life experiences.

Things I am noticing on this journey. Those around me aren’t as supportive as I would like about my new way of eating. I started this journey on June 15th. I jumped in the deep end and haven’t looked back. My family is very aware of my restrictions. I have eaten nearly the same combo each time I eat. A large salad, deviled eggs, veggies/dip and protein.

We invited my parents over for dinner on Sunday and my mom asked what she could bring. I said bring whatever you would like. She said I want to bring something you can eat. I said we aren’t eating carbs or sugar. She sighed. “That really limits what I can bring.” Now this isn’t the first time they have been over for dinner in the last 6 months. We have had this conversation nearly every time they come over. It’s depressing. Several months ago she brought 5 baked potatoes over. That is certainly NOT keto. LOL

It took my parents until after I had lost 60 lbs to even say anything to me about my progress. It’s like my weight or the fact I am losing is the elephant in the room. Everyone sees it, no one says anything. Over Thanksgiving, my mom said something about how much weight I had lost. I said about 75 lbs. She said are you planning to keep it off? I said that is always the plan mom. I feel like my bestie, my husband and spark friends are the only real support system I have on this journey. I am so thankful I have you all.

I have always been the biggest in my class, the biggest in the room, the biggest friend. I have just become accustomed to being the biggest everywhere I go. I have heard comments when I have been out, horribly painful comments that I chose to ignore. Comments that I know had eaten away my self-confidence. I just got to the point I didn’t care about my weight. I have always taken great pride in my appearance, except for my weight. I have a husband who is supportive and loves me no matter what my weight is. The final straw was this summer when we took a vacation to the beach. My bestie met us and we took a pic together and I WAS HORRIFIED. Enough was enough. So glad I found ELAB/IF. It has CHANGED my life.

My husband showed me pics over the weekend from over the summer and at the start of my journey. I was shocked. Absolutely shocked at how truly big I was. I am making incredible progress.
My sister took a pic of me on my birthday which was Oct 11th and I didn’t recognize myself. I actually cried. I look like a normal person. Someone who still has weight to loose, but not a morbidly obese person who is hiding under all that weight, acting like everything is okay.

Do I feel better losing almost 80 pounds? My self confidence is at an all time high but physically I don’t feel any different. I have always been active. I have a 10 year old. We are on the go most nights and all weekends. I have never let my weight stop me from doing and going places and I am not about to start now.

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  • LIBELULITA
    This blog made me tear up. I remember a lot of those feelings from past weight losses, and this time I'm already starting out with snide comments like " why are you even bothering, you'll only put it all back on again", "yeah, yeah, you're not going to lose the weight again. You'll have messed up your metabolism too much", "you're not going to be able to do it...face it"...and those are from my 15 year old daughter and ex MIL. "Do you plan on keeping it off'".....why can't you just say well done?

    Sorry, my own emotion creeping into your blog comments there! I just feel for you. Carry on doing what you're doing, and block the negativity emoticon
    55 days ago
  • BOBBIESOCKS-46
    Wow, Nic, I am so proud of you for sticking with your convictions and losing 80 pounds. It is so great that you have never let your weight stop you from enjoying life and that your husband is so supportive and doing it with you. You both should be proud of yourselves. The picture of you two on your Spark page is so sweet. Y'all are a beautiful couple.

    Your family will come around someday when you least expect it. But, my heart goes out to you for not having the support from them that you need now. Sometimes families are the hardest on us when we make a change they don't understand.

    (((Hugs))) Bobbie
    70 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/18/2020 10:55:16 PM
  • RUTHIEBEAR
    WOOHOO!! YOu are amazing! I understand how you feel. I feel invisible most of the time, even though over weight. I try to focus on who I am rather than what I am. I try to be kinder to myself. You are an inspiration. emoticon
    71 days ago
  • CAT125
    They are probably just unsure of the new person you are becoming.
    You are doing emoticon ... emoticon emoticon emoticon
    72 days ago
  • DOVESEYES
    I think your journey is what most of us would say who have lost a high amount. Having a supportive husband is so great too :). We all have to deal with "why won't you try it?" "do you want this cake?" "What is wrong with it I made it for you ?" comments .... :)

    Thanks for putting it in your blog ... great :)
    74 days ago
  • MORTICIAADDAMS
    Awesome! You are doing great!
    74 days ago
  • 2BDYNAMIC
    My heart goes out to you----I know all too well how it feels to master something as significant as you have done---only to be the 'invisible man' in the room----or as you say---the elephant in the room. I graduated from nursing and not one family member congratulated me---not even a single card. All i can say--is hold your head high---because you changed your life----may have even prolonged it---the Victory is yours---and it is too bad they can't be big enough to take notice. I will say it for them........... CONGRATULATIONS!! You are an inspiration and i am sure you look fabulous!! March on!
    74 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10676776
    emoticon on your 80 lbs weight loss. Stay focused on your weight management goals, and you will have continued success and enjoy good health too. Remember, YOU are worth the effort! SPark ON! emoticon emoticon
    74 days ago
  • ALEXSGIRL1
    congrats on the 80 pounds that is so awesome and emoticon
    74 days ago
  • YOUCANDOITNANA
    What a journey for you. Please continue to believe in yourself. People say all kinds of thing for all kinds of reasons. Listen to your heart and you've got this.
    74 days ago
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