The sunset of 2020
Sunday, November 22, 2020
Coming towards the end of the year, I always get a bit melancholy, especially in a year when I have not been very successful towards my goals. 2020, of course, is another level of disappointing!
So right now I am fighting with my thoughts on a daily basis, but also making sure to win each battle. So hopefully I will eventually win the war as well.
One of the battles has been whether or not to weigh myself. On the one hand, the result has been going up each week and getting me down quite badly but on the other hand if I don't weigh, I am in danger of spiraling out of control completely. So I have come to a decision. I am going to do my next weigh in on 1st December and then weigh on the 1st of each month up to and including April. I will then go back to weekly weigh ins during April and onwards until September, when (all being well) we have our next holiday.
I am also going to break the cycle I have been going through with tracking my food for the last 2 years. it would start with enthusiastic logging, move to logging but not really caring about my calorie goal, then stop logging completely for a week or so. Then repeat! So I am going to completely stop logging my food. I want to get back in tune with my body and learn to eat what I need to eat and a little of what I want to eat. This is going to take some time and I am not going to rush it. I will give myself until April and see how I am doing. If I need to start logging again alongside resuming weekly weigh ins, that is what I will do.
Physical activity has always been and continues to be a big issue for me. I don't have a lot more to say on this right now, but hopefully in the near future I will make some progress that I can share with you all.
In other news, I have just completed my first week on a new working pattern. Still 30 hours per week, but now spread over 5 days instead of 4. It is taking some adjustment, but I think it will work out well in time. The main motivation for the change is to please my client, but if I can take some benefits from it for myself, I will do!
What I didn't come to terms with until recently is, lockdown does not equal a pause button on life. Time is still passing by and the effects of time are evident in our bodies and the world outside. We have to do our best to keep moving forwards in as many areas of life as we can.
Chin up, Sparkers!