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Sunday afternoon and checking in

Sunday, October 25, 2020

October tends to be a tough month for me and for some reason, it tends to take me By surprise because life is going on all around me and I balance things in real time but this blast from the past sneaks in and bowls me over. Today is the anniversary of my father's death and my mother's funeral. They died 10 years apart but within days of each other and of their anniversary. My son also died in October and it seems that October is always filled with drama and rollercoaster moods. I love Autumn and that helps to modulate my moods.

This year everything seems MORE - more difficult, more distressing, more challenging, etc. The thought of losing my aunt who is the last of my parents' generation brings deeper meaning to all of the other things going on. The thought of going back to the school building when even our church has had to close down again due to the increase in Covid cases makes me even more nervous about returning. Life just seems to be determined to be so NORMAL - as in stuff happens all the time, good bad and indifferent, but rarely smooth, rarely simple, and rarely impossible.

Chaos, change and complicated is LIFE! Grief, sadness, anger are as much a part of life as love, joy, and delight are. Sometimes they all but at once and other times they come separately and are easier to process and cope with, but however they arrive they eventually need to be addressed to move forward.

Have a beautiful and blessed day. Appreciate what you have, enjoy yourself and make your world a better place because YOU make an impact on the lives of many othrrs.
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    87 days ago
    So very sorry for all the emotional pain from which you suffer. Keeping you close in prayer and warm thoughts. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    87 days ago
    We are in such shattering times right now. So many are struggling. You have done so well lately. Sometimes you just need to talk and it is hard to talk to people about problems. Sending hugs and prayers. Pat. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    87 days ago
    I'm sorry that October can be so tough for you. I totally understand as November is the month that bad things tend to happen in our family. Sounds like you have a decent handle on it though. Do the best you can under the circumstances. That is all each of us can do these days.
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  • READY201811
    Prayers and hugs. A lot of hurtful circumstances and memories of pain.
    87 days ago
  • ANYVAR54
    Nancy you are really barring your soul with us. If you were in the room with me, I would sit you down and let you just talk and get out all of the sorrow and thoughts of uncertainty and frustration you are dealing with. And if you would let me take you in my arms and encourage you to just cry and let some of your frustration out. I still mourn the death of my father who had a tragic accident on October 1, 1969 when I was a freshman in high school. I was able to talk about it just today as my husband and I took our daily walk. May God give you someone in your physical life that you can be honest with to get out your pain. I don’t know if you have God in your life, but I do in mine and I want you to know that I am praying for you.
    87 days ago
    What an inspiring blog! Thank you for sharing this. I hope you continue to find solace in this beautiful autumn season.

    87 days ago
    emoticon These are such crazy and stressful times. Best wishes when you return to school for safety for everyone.
    88 days ago
    You have a lot of emotional situations swirling around! And this pandemic only magnifies things. HUGS and prayers for peace.

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