Sunday afternoon and checking in

October tends to be a tough month for me and for some reason, it tends to take me By surprise because life is going on all around me and I balance things in real time but this blast from the past sneaks in and bowls me over. Today is the anniversary of my father's death and my mother's funeral. They died 10 years apart but within days of each other and of their anniversary. My son also died in October and it seems that October is always filled with drama and rollercoaster moods. I love Autumn and that helps to modulate my moods.

This year everything seems MORE - more difficult, more distressing, more challenging, etc. The thought of losing my aunt who is the last of my parents' generation brings deeper meaning to all of the other things going on. The thought of going back to the school building when even our church has had to close down again due to the increase in Covid cases makes me even more nervous about returning. Life just seems to be determined to be so NORMAL - as in stuff happens all the time, good bad and indifferent, but rarely smooth, rarely simple, and rarely impossible.

Chaos, change and complicated is LIFE! Grief, sadness, anger are as much a part of life as love, joy, and delight are. Sometimes they all but at once and other times they come separately and are easier to process and cope with, but however they arrive they eventually need to be addressed to move forward.

Have a beautiful and blessed day. Appreciate what you have, enjoy yourself and make your world a better place because YOU make an impact on the lives of many othrrs.