Saturday, October 24, 2020
I have been feeling a little overwhelmed... for rather obvious reasons. I am trying to stay in the present and not worry about the future (since I have no control over the test results), but there are times when I remember the worst case scenarios... and instead of being thankful that I have a good medical team and access to quick care.... I wallow in what if’s and possibly’s. I know, I know they. Lead no place good. I am however a natural worrier. So when the possibilities creep up on me I tend to chew on them for a while before setting them aside again. I cannot foresee the future. I cannot control the outcomes. I can only focus on the here and now and act accordingly. Until the next time I get beset by worry over the future... lol. It’s a process this letting go. And I will do it over and over again before I get back the results. I guess I am only human after all.