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Saturday, October 24, 2020

I have been feeling a little overwhelmed... for rather obvious reasons. I am trying to stay in the present and not worry about the future (since I have no control over the test results), but there are times when I remember the worst case scenarios... and instead of being thankful that I have a good medical team and access to quick care.... I wallow in what if’s and possibly’s. I know, I know they. Lead no place good. I am however a natural worrier. So when the possibilities creep up on me I tend to chew on them for a while before setting them aside again. I cannot foresee the future. I cannot control the outcomes. I can only focus on the here and now and act accordingly. Until the next time I get beset by worry over the future... lol. It’s a process this letting go. And I will do it over and over again before I get back the results. I guess I am only human after all.
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  • _CYNDY55_
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    82 days ago
  • DESERTDREAMERS
    Sometimes there is a fine line between going dark immediately (that bump is XYZ, this is it! Gonna die!) & being blithely ignorant (hey, what’s that thing on your arm looks horrendous! Never mind, I’ll think about it tomorrow). You seem to have a good medical system in place, father, brothers, nieces supportive (& don’t forget Cooper!. And all of your virtual friends.
    83 days ago
  • GARDENCHRIS
    you can't change what was, doctors will get you through this change , hang in there
    83 days ago
  • KATIE5668
    Sounds very human to me..that waiting for results is not an easy time. As we both know..one day at a time..give it your best thas all any of us can do..and you do a great job. I would say don't worry..but I have to admit to being on that worry train more than a few times myself!
    84 days ago
  • DOVESEYES
    It is so hard when news is pending, I try to think about today and past good memories to keep my mind on the day and not the future ... thinking of you hugs
    84 days ago
  • DIANEDOESSMILES
    It's so natural to worry, and if you are like 99.9999% of us our minds JUMPS to the worse case scenario! Years ago I found a spot and of COURSE figured "it's SKIN CANCER!" It wasn't. It was precancerous, but not cancerous. Now I am dealing with a variety of skin cancer spots,,,, I'm not at all upset. LOL Life is sooo strange!!

    Hope they'll have some answers for you soon. The brain aneurysm I worried myself about SICK!! The surgery was over and done with, here I am. FINE. Well,,, LOL let's be honest fine for ME!! LOLOL
    84 days ago
  • AKA_TROUBLE
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    84 days ago
  • SERENEART
    emoticon I know waiting sucks.... you will know soon and then can plan a course of action if any.

    sending hugs and prayers.
    84 days ago
  • DEBBY4576
    Oh boy do I get what you are saying Chandra. I could have written this.
    84 days ago
  • RREDFORD5
    Yes, you're human. There's not one thing wrong with having a thought, even letting it hang for a bit as you consider it, then deciding whether to accept it before you let it go. I think you have a good handle on things, and I'm also glad you come here to vent to us. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    84 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    HUGS and yes, you are only human. Hugs and prayers to go along!
    84 days ago
  • HAPPYSOUL91
    I think you are doing very well. Everything you mentioned is so normal but you do step out regardless emoticon
    84 days ago
  • MDOWER1
    Mo help for you from me
    84 days ago
  • MARYJOANNA
    The best thing to do is pray!
    84 days ago
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