The difference between dieting and a weight loss journey
Saturday, October 24, 2020
It's interesting how some people view weight loss. I had a conversation with my mom yesterday. She said she had a dream that I lost too much weight and that she didn't recognize me anymore. She told me to "be careful". This surprised me. I thought she would be proud of my hard work and accomplishment, not concerned. I asked her "be careful of what?" and she said "dieting". I had to explain to her that I'm not on a diet, I'm not losing weight quickly or practicing any unhealthy weight loss fads. I've literally just been eating healthy and exercising/ walking daily. My weight loss has been SLOW and although I've lost 40 pounds in over a year and a half, I'm still in the "obese" range for my height and even my final goal weight will still above what it should be. Just for reference, I'm 5'0" and now 156 pounds at my lowest.
I guess maybe it's because I have been overweight my entire life but to my family, it was just "normal" so it's really hard for them to see my in any other way. I went home to visit a few months ago and repeatedly got the comment of "you're not eating enough. We need to feed you!". I'm eating around 1300-1400 calories a day, which is enough for my activity level. This was just something that was never taught or talked about in my family when I was growing up. We would eat 5-6 pretty large meals a day, taught to clean our entire plates, allowed to consume all the carbs, candy and soda our hearts desired, never told to exercise and none of this was ever considered unhealthy.
The whole reason I went on this journey was to learn how to live a healthier life and to have a better relationship with food and exercise. Consistently working out. Cutting out the junk food, sugar and dairy. Cooking everything at home. Eating my veggies. Switching to all organic, whole foods. Learning about calories in/ calories out and portion control. Not specifically just for weight loss but more importantly to see if it would help reverse all of the health issues I was having as well as learning how to be happy with myself on the inside and finding my own confidence. I'm still working on that last part.
Although I can't control the way others (family, friends) view me and my weight loss journey, I hope that one day they can acknowledge it for what it is. Not a diet but my hard work and dedication to this process finally paying off. I feel 100% healthier and nourished. My blood work all came back normal, my vitals are good. I've learned how to better cope with my stress and emotions through journaling and exercising, rather than overeating and I feel like I'm becoming the happier, more positive version of myself that I've always longed to be.