After the Descent
Monday, October 19, 2020
I know I've been gone a long time. Having one health crisis after another. Many hospital stays. I 'm trying now to get a grip...I found to my horror that one of my new medicines causes weight gain. I had noticed a constant stomach growling and feeling ravenous...very similar to steroid hunger. The good thing is that I rarely can eat even half a meal serving. That has been a gift from God and it has kept me from totally blowing up.
So, I haven't weighed myself in a few days...Not sure how much damage i've done. Right now, I just got out of a long hospital stay and am trying to regroup.. In the hospital I lost 3 lbs. but probably have regained that and then some. I really MUST defeat this hunger and stinky mental attitude and get back with the program. I am incredibly weak. I can barely make it --with Hoffstrand crutches--up the few steps into dad's house...and dad had made those steps for my mom---who also had RA. The steps are very shallow...maybe half the normal height of steps and I almost fell down them several times yesterday.
I am seeking wisdom, encouragement, and kindness. I'll be up front about feeling the need for all of that. Any advice also that you can offer from your own experience --about getting back on the Healthy--Eating horse you had fallen off of. Any suggestions? hints? I know I need to weigh myself today and that will either boost my morale or squash me flatter than a bug on a car window.. But it must be done.
And friends.....if you are on speaking terms with Jesus, please pray for me. I just need to get my life back together. It has been a hellish year especially the last 3 months.
Addendum:: I just weighed myself and have gained one pound since arrival at dad's. One pound is manageable. Thank you , Lord!