Day 38: Having to Change My Approach
Sunday, October 18, 2020
I used to get up and exercise right away and do a blog and meditate and track food, etc. I can no longer do that. When I first get up now I feel extremely bad. I have to take my pain medication and antibiotics and wait for a while before I feel good enough to do *anything*. Every day seems to take tremendous effort right now. I pretty much just stay in bed most of the time. However, I feel pretty lucky in that the pain medicine works well enough to help me be able to do a little bit once the day wears on some. So I'm going to have to start changing my routine. I feel pretty locked into it just because it's become such a habit, so that's a mentality I'm going to have to work really hard to change. I'm so used to getting up really early and then getting all my exercise and everything else done. So if I don't do all that super early in the morning then I feel like not doing it at all. That's going to have to be different now. I can no longer stay up as late as I used to be able to either. So, I'm going to work out a new schedule for myself and figure out what my best hours are to be doing things.
Nutrition: The last couple of weeks of nutrition have been pretty bad. I'm going to do a blog about my weight and what I intend to do about it after this one. But I'm planning to start fresh with my nutrition and I've planned and tracked all of my food today even though it's not as healthy as it should be. Fritzy and I picked up some groceries yesterday and we just grabbed some things that were so incredibly simple like lunchmeat, some lunchables, some single serve cottage cheese, and a little bit of Halloween candy. So even though I really want to cook healthier and be healthier in general, moving and bending is so hard right now because of the pain in my ribs, so making things as easy as possible for myself is really what I've been doing. Although, I'm going to work to start challenging myself a little bit more. Since I'm moving about 80% of my focus onto health and nutrition, I'm going to have more time to dedicate to getting my food situation sorted out and finding simpler healthier foods to eat.
Fitness: I got my exercise routine all made up. There's some exercises in there for my carpal tunnel and ankles and back and neck and knees as well as COPD exercises. I can only exercise in a chair now where before I could do a little bit of standing as well. But I am grateful to be able to do anything at all. So I'm going to focus on exercising whenever I can and try to still exercise 5-6 times per week. Our internet is dodgy in the early evenings from like 5-10 PM and I'm asleep by then and early mornings I'm not feeling well so I'm going to have to move my exercising to later in the morning.
Meditation: Same with meditation.
Beverages: Really the #1 reason I'm not drinking water like I should be is because I need the caffeine to get through my day. But. I found my water cup that has the marks to count my water consumption (still can't find my water bottle, though), and so I'm going to start using it again.
Cigars: I'm low on money for cigars right now so that should help me to cut back at least for now.
Motivation: Motivation is building again. I really do want to start from scratch again, but with a different kind of program this time, one tailored to fit my current situation. I know I can't expect to be doing the things I was doing before and that I have to build up my strength again. So I'm starting from a very small point and going slowly.
Non-Scale Victory: My non-scale victory right now is being okay with where I am. It's a long way from where I used to be and I could be really unhappy with that, but what's the use? I am where I am and I can't change that now. So I have to accept that and work with what I have.
Self-Esteem: Self-esteem is good. I'm happy to be me and happy to be lucky enough to be doing the things I am.
Writing: I heard back about my poetry portfolio last night. The magazine said they were honoured to have the opportunity to read my poems and that they really enjoyed them, but that they just weren't right for the magazine. I really need to get better at targeting my markets. However, I resubmitted them to a magazine that publishes classical poetry. So we'll see how that works out. I also sent one of my fantasy stories to a clean fantasy magazine. So we'll see.
Our weekend has been pretty uneventful tbh. Pretty much just relaxing. Fritzy and I watched the movie "The Witches" yesterday and had popcorn and that was nice. This morning I'm working on hammering out my new program.