Oct 8 2020
Thursday, October 08, 2020
I normally don’t write in the blog section but what I’m feeling today requires a little more writing than the space on a feed update....
I truly am at the end of patience with myself, I’m so tired of the self sabotage, the over excessive eating and just plain laziness I’ve felt in quite a long time!
I can continue to say my life is difficult everyday and the stress eats away at me and I eat when I’m stressed ect but in reality everyone is stressed and not everyone is as unhealthy as I am today !
I’ve fallen into a slight depression, I go to bed at night and I wonder if I’m going to wake up the next morning, I wonder if tomorrow will be different, if I’ll look into the mirror and smile instead of looking into it disgusted at what I’ve allowed myself to become!
39 yrs old 340 lbs at 5’5 is a fast track to dead by 40
I’ve tried everything and I shop relatively healthy nothing works, I know I’m doing something wrong I know my own mind is a factor and the fear I put in it is stopping me....
Basically in a nut shell I’m looking for others like me others who struggle with themselves, I need and want a very close support system, friends and guidance !
I apologize for the negative first time post, I just needed a venting source , I truly hope everyone had a fabulous day !!
Keep on keeping on 💪🌸