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Responsibility

Saturday, September 26, 2020

Well, since I went to my dad's house my weight was up 10 lbs then down five and now up two. It''s a bit like a trampoline. Right now i have no plans (food plans) or thoughts about how to proceed. Just eating what I can find in the house and tracking. Yesterday's calories were 900 odd. as were the day's before. I probably should have taken my dad up on his offer to pick up groceries on our way home two nights ago. I thought I had enough in the house to eat until next week when I would place an order from Walmart Pickup. But there's a lot less here than I thought there was. If I was to actually prepare a meal, there are enough ingredients here to last for probably another week....but I have not got the stamina to do that. I have been just having protein shakes instead of some meals.

Partly I should live off the land---either the land under my belt or the land in the cupboards....because any day now I will be going to a hospital for a problem that has acted up. I would hate to go shopping and then have to leave it all here to rot while I am away.

I have all but stopped writing in my main blog on Blogger. (Treasures from Darkness)--after 11 years of blogging there, I have come to the point where I have nothing else to say.....so I have said nothing. i have not made any official proclamation about ending it but at some point I need to decide what direction in which I should go. There are people there who have faithfully read my blog for years. I hate to disappoint them but do I got out with a bang or a whimper?

Same here.
I keep struggling and struggling here to lose each pound. Only to regain 10 at dad's just because I ate normally for the week that I was there. There were no extraordinary lapses...I kept track of the calories as much as possible. Actually, now that I think about it there were one or two lapses Namely: dried (and sweetened) coconut slices when I ate almost a whole bag of them and also there was a close encounter of the Peanut M&M kind.. so no, I was not guiltless. And yes, i had a DQ blizzard....and a small Wendy's Frosty. SO I will shut up now about the black magic involved in my recent weight gain. i have to somehow learn to control myself and my food purchases when I'm away from home. When I'm here and only have access to a week's worth of groceries or less because when I shop or place an online order, I am pretty well controlled and do not buy much that is terrible.

So I hope I learned my lesson about accurately assessing me degree of responsibility for my food choices and keep a closer rein on mysellf when away;.....and jjust "stay the course" the weight should go down..

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  • BROOKLYN_BORN
    I admire your honesty. Yes, no magic involved in either weight loss or gain. We are responsible and tracking is what keeps us honest.

    As for your main blog, I hope you will write a temporary explanation to your loyal readers. Returning to Spark I find myself thinking "I wonder what happened to...?"

    I hope the flare up of your medical problem is only temporary
    55 days ago
  • LUCYCAN7
    Don't give up and don't be defeated Cynthia! Prayers for your problems! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    57 days ago
  • DETERMINED369
    I wonder what it is in some of us that magically puts those 10 pounds on when just having a few treats. I told my daughter yesterday I guess sugar is my alcohol. I'm addicted and can't have any at all. No moderation for my body. It doesn't seem to understand moderation. Even one small cupcake has derailed the losing so I just can't.
    Don't give up totally on your blog. You have always had a way of coming up with another story to share that is very touching to those of us who read it. A dry spell is good once in awhile. I think that's when we gain even more insight into what makes us tick...or tock. Hugs to you this day!! Take care!!
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    58 days ago
  • RALPHDB
    We learn when we are open to the lesson.
    58 days ago
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