Saturday, September 26, 2020
Well, since I went to my dad's house my weight was up 10 lbs then down five and now up two. It''s a bit like a trampoline. Right now i have no plans (food plans) or thoughts about how to proceed. Just eating what I can find in the house and tracking. Yesterday's calories were 900 odd. as were the day's before. I probably should have taken my dad up on his offer to pick up groceries on our way home two nights ago. I thought I had enough in the house to eat until next week when I would place an order from Walmart Pickup. But there's a lot less here than I thought there was. If I was to actually prepare a meal, there are enough ingredients here to last for probably another week....but I have not got the stamina to do that. I have been just having protein shakes instead of some meals.
Partly I should live off the land---either the land under my belt or the land in the cupboards....because any day now I will be going to a hospital for a problem that has acted up. I would hate to go shopping and then have to leave it all here to rot while I am away.
I have all but stopped writing in my main blog on Blogger. (Treasures from Darkness)--after 11 years of blogging there, I have come to the point where I have nothing else to say.....so I have said nothing. i have not made any official proclamation about ending it but at some point I need to decide what direction in which I should go. There are people there who have faithfully read my blog for years. I hate to disappoint them but do I got out with a bang or a whimper?
I keep struggling and struggling here to lose each pound. Only to regain 10 at dad's just because I ate normally for the week that I was there. There were no extraordinary lapses...I kept track of the calories as much as possible. Actually, now that I think about it there were one or two lapses Namely: dried (and sweetened) coconut slices when I ate almost a whole bag of them and also there was a close encounter of the Peanut M&M kind.. so no, I was not guiltless. And yes, i had a DQ blizzard....and a small Wendy's Frosty. SO I will shut up now about the black magic involved in my recent weight gain. i have to somehow learn to control myself and my food purchases when I'm away from home. When I'm here and only have access to a week's worth of groceries or less because when I shop or place an online order, I am pretty well controlled and do not buy much that is terrible.
So I hope I learned my lesson about accurately assessing me degree of responsibility for my food choices and keep a closer rein on mysellf when away;.....and jjust "stay the course" the weight should go down..