Finally back to Sparking and exercising
Friday, September 25, 2020
I’ve been away quite some time. A lot has happened. I lost my dear Father in November, he succumbed to melanoma. I miss speaking him and visiting him, even if it took a day to get there. I divorced in January, after 38 years. Also caught Covid January thru February. Started a new job February. Broke my fibula and fractured my ankle early March. Called back to work right as I healed, May 1. Living together amicably, although divorced now, which for some reason is easier than living life married. Boundaries are put in place.
trying to decluttering attic garage and basement to consider home sale.
Two of my adult children won’t speak to me since filing for divorce. They think I walked out of their lives, in choosing to divorce their Father, because I didn’t discuss with any of them in advance.
“She had her reasons”
I knew this would be the result, the kids would get mad at me and think their Father a victim, and it has happened just as I expected. They were taught I was not to be valued, a long time ago.
Life is GOOD, is spite of everything I have endured. And I smile every single day and even laugh out loud.
I’m no longer living life beneath the radar. Depression over living a life without self nurturing or companionship or respect, was nothing I could endure any longer, and I haven’t regretted my choice for a single moment.
I can value myself, and find value in each of my days. I trust I God that life will unfold as it should, and peace will prevail. No matter how long it takes.
I’ve survived my own poor decisions, I’ve survived plenty, and life is exactly what I choose to make it from here on in. Good and well worth living. No more ruminating and isolating in grief.
Today I kayaked with a friend, her lake was so peaceful and serene. It was a simple joy.
I also felt inspired to use my elliptical after a short walk in my neighborhood. I went slow as molasses for 2 hours on the elliptical, while I watched HGTV. I tracked all of my food and was happy to see just 1700 calories. This was such a perfect day, start to finish.
Life is GOOD.