Friday, September 18, 2020
I can get really in my head. I am making a decision (again) to try to get out of my head and back into action. There are very obvious steps for making changes, eat less (or differently) move more, sleep, yada yada yada. I always want to know WHY I am not doing those things easily, or what's preventing me from doing them effortlessly. I am working on recording the times when I go off track, so I can see why, but other than that, trying hard to get out of my head and just do the actions that lead to results.
I am following a journal prompting program by Julia Cameron called 'Write Yourself to your Right Size,' and so far the realizations that I've had a great. I've always loved writing things down, and having some guided prompts is helping me work through some of my hang-ups.
I am cleaning all of the ash and debris out of the garage and my weight station today, so I can start lifting again. I couldn't keep up with it when the fires were really bad, even with the garage mostly closed, the ash would drift in and settle, and the air quality was so bad I couldn't be out there. We have an older detached garage, so it's not terrible, but not functional for how bad the AQI got here.
Anyways, I'm feeling more like my positive self again, and that's helpful. I've lost 3 of the 7 lbs I gained, and am going in the right direction. I have had some realizations around food scarcity and will write more about that tomorrow if it's still in my head.