A month out from the wedding
Wednesday, September 16, 2020
Ok so today I have to get serious once again,get refocused (again!) and stick to my plans. I've been loosely trying to do just that, anyway, when mood swings, health scares, a tummy bug and general anxiety will let me. I still have so much to do to get ready for the wedding and honeymoon, and hopefully now I can stay focused enough to do it all.
Predictably enough, I'm anxious way beyond what I should be, even though, by now, I should know every trick in the book to calm my nerves. I do pretty well until something difficult happens, and then I'm thrown into a real tizzy. My niece getting covid and possibly exposing several family members was scary, but she's on the mend and no one else in the family caught it, which was a huge relief. But wow, those days when we didn't know. I started losing hair from the anxiety of it, and I'm still shedding at an alarming rate. Even making an extra effort to stay calm isn't helping much, or taking extra vitamins. I know that thyroid problems can cause hair loss, but I'm doing all I can for my thyroid, so I'm just hoping I'll stop losing hair soon. I can always wear a hat for the wedding, and I love hats so that won't be a problem.
I'm even making steady progress on getting more steps and moving, and it's so much easier to walk than it was even a month ago. Now I need to go for consistency, which is not my strong point at the moment. I get distracted by... well I'm not even sure what I'm distracted by. The internet, probably. Although, I have been reading more lately, which I'm glad I can finally do. I love books so much and since I started having symptoms of Hashimoto's, I've had trouble concentrating enough to be able to read. But it's gotten easier lately.
Today I (surprise!) have to do more wedding planning. I made a list of things I still need to buy yesterday and today I'm making a list of the things left to do. I kinda wish that nagging other people wasn't part of the list, but it kinda is. I guess it isn't really nagging, more like reminding, but it feels like I have to do some nagging, too. It will all be worth it when I have a lovely ceremony and a busy honeymoon and a wonderful marriage, because I was willing to nudge people along.