Monday, September 14, 2020
It has been a while since I wrote one of these and I don't really feel like I had anything specific to say...so I thought I'd just ramble for a minute because supposedly this blog thing is supposed to be therapeutic for me. So the last month? My honest opinion is that it has felt pretty good. Plenty of the same struggles and stress have been there but I can say that the way I take care of myself has not been one of them. I've been doing right by myself and there's a real confidence boost in that after years of wreaking self-devastation instead. So I guess I can say in that there is something to celebrate. The positive changes are definitely leaking into other parts of my life. A slow process but I can see it happening. Learning a bit of mindfulness and patience can go a long ways in just about any aspect of my life. Something I most definitely was lacking as soon as four months ago. Anyway...it all still feels like a work in progress. Which I'm trying to teach myself to be okay with. I tend to have expectations for myself that are way too high and I've been trying to tell myself to just chill out and let me be me. I hope I can continue to find the small victories that are helping me get there.