Can I just delete the past three years of nonsense, here?
Saturday, September 12, 2020
Three years ago, I came back, recommitted to my health and fitness goals, and fit into a lovely "mother of the bride" dress. And then went right back to old habits without really reaching my ultimate goal, and unfortunately without maintaining the weight loss I'd worked so diligently to achieve.
DO NOT CONGRATULATE ME FOR COMING BACK. Don't say "you've got this." Yell at me - fine. But celebrate my climbing back on the wagon, here? LOL Just please don't. I do know what I need to do, and now I just need to do it.
What have I learned in the interim? Oh, yes. I AM an "emotional eater." I am apparently SO good at this I've been in denial for years that I have any emotions I'm "stuffing down" with food. (Mostly, though, it's boredom, "f*** it," and "YAY! Let's celebrate with cake!" spiced up with occasional stress, mild depression (see "f*** it" above) and hormones - or lack thereof - I think.) Whatever. Being overweight is also boring. Being winded and lightheaded upon walking 20K steps in 100 degree heat is stressful. Realizing I'm not getting any younger is - well, depressing, if I just let it AGE me. So, I'm here to not let that happen.
You can congratulate me and say "KNEW you could do it!" after I've done it.