September 4th, 2020

My dear sister/friend BE-THE-CHANGE (Deb) called me out for not keeping my commitment to post a weekly blog. Here I am. I apologize and move forward.

My therapist has increased my anxiety medication. He has also encouraged me to get back on my KETO STRONG plan. He suggested that I talk to my boss about a leave of absence from Water Aerobic Classes. His solution for me is to continue to teach my swim students because it is in the therapy pool & one on one. I can be in the private pool, quietly away from the main part of the Y & big pool. I can just deal with the children one on one, which makes me happy. I can stay after and get in exercise in the water, which soothes my soul. I believe that this will help me. My boss was very willing to agree to this. I will teach class tomorrow for the first time in weeks. My body will be happy to be back in the water.

The only down fall for my medication is that I seem to fall asleep pretty easy during the day. Of course, I am just sitting around so that is to be understood. My sleep at night is still riddled with night terrors. However, I fall asleep easier and that is a good thing. My anxiety is still pretty high. I feel like my skin is crawling and my insides are quaking. I'm not comfortable leaving the house. But, it is a one day at a time thing and I am confident that all will be well.

I am so grateful to be back on my KETO plan. I was more successful on this plan than any other. I have seen too much weight gain since going off. It just so happened that COVID hit right after my doctor told me to stop Keto. The 2 were not a good combination. Emotional overeating and eating all the wrong things have sent me into a tailspin. I feel better already and today is just day 2. I think that maybe this will help my anxiety as well. That feeling of being out of control with my food is paralyzing.

Yesterday was the initial weigh day for the HARVEST YOUR HEALTH Fall BLC. My team has made me proud. Everyone posted their weights on time. Pages are decorated. We are busy casting our votes for the best SparkPages. I have faith that this will be a good challenge for us. The entire team family has been struggling with 2020. I think that we all need prayer at this point. Covid, violence, weather, fires, illnesses, cancer, loss..... we have been affected by all of these things. I remind ALL of us to be kind to ourselves and to each other. We all need LOVE and KINDNESS and understanding right now.

Thanks for taking the journey with me. Bright blessings to you all.