Well this isn't good
Wednesday, September 02, 2020
My niece went off to college a couple of weeks ago and now she has the virus. She's being quarantined in a motel for two weeks, and my sister is beside herself. I'm worried about her, too, but even more worried for my mom and other niece and sister, because my niece visited home last week, and it's possible she already had the virus. I'm a little worried for my daughter and myself, too, because we saw her, briefly, also. The good news is that it was a week ago and no one feels sick here, but I won't stop worrying until another week is over and my my niece fully recovers.
I was already feeling tense because A. My fiance's daughter is moving to Seattle at the end of the month and he's sad about it, and it hits especially hard after his youngest daughter moved out of town. B. I went to visit my younger daughter for her birthday and she was obviously miserable. She's way too thin and she hardly cracked a smile the whole two hours we were at the picnic, and her body language was not good. I would suspect that her boyfriend isn't treating her well but I don't think that's the problem. I wish I knew what was. C. I don't know what to do about my wedding. My mom is buying things for it like crazy, which I appreciate, but I'm in the strange position of hoping most people don't show up. I need to devote the rest of the month to coming up with ways to make the wedding safer. I don't want to postpone it because D. My mom's health is so bad I worry about how long she'll be around. E. My older daughter is struggling with depression and she's finding it hard to go to work, or do much of anything else. She'll actually talk to me about it, but there isn't much I can do for her. I told her to take walks and meditate, but I wish she could afford a therapist. My kids' dad is bipolar and I worry that eventually my kids will be too. F. I took a blood test last week and I still haven't gotten the results. I know I should call my doctor, but I'm afraid of what she'll tell me.
So yeah, there are a few things contributing to me feeling down.