21 days ago, I downloaded a mediation app. Why? Because I realized I had been super stressed and needed to do something about it.
Just like I gave Spark a chance, I was giving this app a chance as well...incorporate 5 minutes into my day. That’s it. Learn how to breathe, calm my mind, ok, ok...it was mainly to handle stresses from work.
So what have I learned? Well, first off...to be more present. I have found that I am seeing myself from 3 feet away - observing, worrying, not living in the moment. Experiences happen and move on, but I’m not there. I tried to describe that to my brother recently...how I see myself as an outsider a lot of the time. I discovered exactly why through mediation. So many worries and thoughts spinning through my head...planning the next thing, planning the next thing to worry about...overwhelmed half the time because of all these thoughts. Mediation allows me to focus and recenter...and just “be”.
Be in the present. Grounding myself. Taking things on one at a time. Listening to how I physically react before I respond. What is my body telling me? How can I react differently?
Guided mediation pushes out the cacophony of noise swirling around in my brain...allowing it to actually rest, even if it’s just for 5 or ten minutes.
Truthfully, I have found that I spend more time meditating than just 5-10 minutes. I like to explore the different posts and listen to different teachers insights on things. I find it fascinating and relaxing at the same time. It’s a new hobby! LoL
So my morning now starts with a daily meditation. My day ends with some more and a 5 minute yoga stretching session before bed. Depending on the day, the morning may stretch to 30 minutes. I might take a midday 5 minute refresh before a meeting. The change in my focus and how I react to work stress is noticeable.
One of the guided mediations asked about my intention for the practice. I could honestly say It was to bring more joy into my life...to appreciate the joyous moments that I might have missed otherwise. To be present for joy. I keep that in the back of my head....to look for joy and take a pause to just bear witness to it.
This past weekend we went camping...I had 1.5 days to spend with my family before I went back home to work. I can honestly say it was one of the most relaxing campouts we’ve had in a while! I even played a card game (big shock to the family since I’m not the biggest fan of how competitive they get) LOL I sat back and watched blissfully as my crew played a game of corn hole...their interactions and smiles etched in my brain. Being present like that was a gift. (LoL no pun intended)
It’s kinda cool to have this bit of new clarity. I actually thought I handled stress well, but things change. Perceptions change. People change.
Anywho...that’s my place in time right now. The plan is to just keep doing what I’m doing. Adding more exercise is the next phase...already doing that a little bit with my yoga practice this week.
As a side bonus to meditation: I’m sleeping better and I noticed my forehead wrinkles and w-t-f lines in between my brows are a little less noticeable. I’ll trade those lines for smile lines any day!