Well, as I was sure would happen, my mistakes caught right up with me. My weigh-in today was at a half-pound gain. I was honestly thinking it would be a pound or more but I guess my attempts at tracking helped a little bit. Even though I had some slip-ups.
I'm not gonna lie, I've been feeling pretty negative lately. Out of control and frustrated that I can't get back on track. Feelings of hopelessness, that I'll just keep gaining and get to a new highest weight and never stop. I hate these feelings. I also hate that I wake up in the morning starving! I used to wake up and not feel any hunger til at least 11 am.
But, that was the old me. I have to face facts. I'm different now. our lives are different now and it's a different world. I have to change my schedule and I can't diet the same now as I did when I first lost the weight.
There it is. I marked my week and it definitely needs improvement. I'm determined to find the new routine that works for me. I feel like I'm so close to breaking out of this funk again!
I read all the comments yesterday.
Sometimes I'm afraid to because I'm afraid to read the truth. But I need the truth to stay accountable and push forward. like I read, I'll love seeing all the good days and marking them. I'll cry with happiness seeing just a small loss on the scale after a week full of hard work. I want to feel this!
So, here's to week 2. A better week. Better eating.
I want to wear my jeans again! I've been stuck in my workout pants lately.
Hubby asked me why I never wear the new jeans he got me. I can't tell him the truth. I just say I can't find them. I want to put them on and surprise him as soon as I am able!
Ok, time to keep going. This week I'll be drinking more water, eating healthier meals, and snacks. Avoiding fast food!
I keep thinking of one of my favorite books as a kid.
Going up that hill at first is so hard. So daunting. But when you get to the top and see how far you've come...it's the best feeling ever!
Happy upcoming weekend!!